“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane had obtained excellent material on her own today, working with beliefs about her writing, symptoms, and movement about the house. The idea was that physical restraints would keep her at her desk and remove temptations to do other things. We were anxious to hear what Seth would have to say about this material.

This small episode this evening is an excellent example of your joint behavior and beliefs. Noise to you personally is a symbol for all of life’s distractions. You are then particularly sensitive in that area. Any discussion between you is at two levels, then, where sound of an unpleasant nature is involved.

Now give us a moment.... Both papers he has done on beliefs (this week) apply as beliefs—the one involving you, and today’s.

He is correct. The beliefs behind these were quite applicable and helpful to a youthful personality. His writing, as much as art does, sprang from periods of deep thinking, isolation, and involved strong tendencies to go inward more or less alone.

Ruburt’s set of beliefs for some time were so invisible, and he identified with them so completely, that it was extremely difficult for him to examine them in the light of the present and his now situation.

The paper written today should be discussed by both of you so that those ideas are brought completely into the open where he can consciously and intellectually examine them. Your emotions follow your beliefs. For many reasons then he was convinced that his course was correct. His methods began to alarm him, but even when they did, and he realized that he was making a bargain of a sort, he still believed in the premise that made a bargain necessary.

Because many of his ideas and beliefs were also bound up with you, your work, your ideas and his interpretations of them, then your relationship became entwined. Initially the beliefs were accepted because he had been taught to believe to fear his energy. On the other hand it was his pride. Now in another kind of life-style, with another kind of personality, the same belief might have been dispensed with easily. If energy flows in conventional accepted patterns it is not feared.

He was then just over 30, and felt that his abilities had not begun to show fruition. The beliefs gathered momentum then, coming from structures from childhood that he felt he could use, and from you ideas, which then, were very much like his.

There are other issues of which he has been lately somewhat aware, connected here for example. In the beginning the symptoms made certain that he would not have to get a job. That fear no longer operates. The belief as he wrote it alone was simply that to do his creative work he had to curtail other activities. In the beginning as an apprentice writer this was to allow him to develop.

Since all of this made such sense to him, he did not change it. Nor could he see beyond it. Until yesterday he could not see himself apart from the system of beliefs.

Give us time.... He had schooled himself to believe that distractions of any kind had to be eliminated. This means that in writing a book he withdrew, and more and more, physically speaking. It was his idea of training. The issues were also operating between you, as his paper on belief indicates.

He also felt that you reacted to his improvement by feeling threatened yourself, that you disapproved of it. Two particular beliefs here: The party at Bega’s, and your “tirade” —his interpretation, about his dealing with Prentice on one particular occasion. For reference it is in his notebook.

Buying a house was in direct opposition to several other beliefs. The money from books gave him freedom to write more books, so to buy was a threat. At the same time he wanted to move, though he has been more satisfied than you.

The symptoms became intensified. The tooth symptoms however brought up a system of beliefs through his writing, and he faced some of them quite directly in a crisis situation. He saw what could happen when beliefs are allowed to run astray, and he attacked some then quite directly, and won out. The contract for my book, on a physical level, relieved him.

The beliefs had built up then to such an extent that highly ritualized behavior was involved. He had to be at his desk at certain times immediately. Now that has vanished. He worked that through out of sheer desperation.

You say that when my book is finished you will move, yet each of you through the years has said “When this book is finished we will move.” Move or not, you must be consciously aware of your beliefs and deal with them on that level. Now. Ruburt’s coming back in here (Apartment 5) represented a willingness to face beliefs. To come out into the open, so to speak, with you and with the world.

Gradually his belief system led to more restrictive behavior, even to some extent impeding inner flow. The psychic was suspect in the beginning, as it seemed to conflict with his writing ideas. This was largely cleared through my books and Seven.

Give us a moment. You can see where in many regards your beliefs jibed, interacted, and yet you have lately both concentrated on the negative aspects, and this is one of your difficulties. Each of you.

When he thinks in such terms he sees an old woman, crippled and alone, incapacitated, in a home, and the fear brings a feeling of powerlessness, not one of strength. The beliefs mentioned added up to beliefs on a physical level so that Ruburt believed that his arms and legs could not straighten out, that he could not physically walk well.