“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This small episode this evening is an excellent example of your joint behavior and beliefs. Noise to you personally is a symbol for all of life’s distractions. You are then particularly sensitive in that area. Any discussion between you is at two levels, then, where sound of an unpleasant nature is involved.

The beliefs had built up then to such an extent that highly ritualized behavior was involved. He had to be at his desk at certain times immediately. Now that has vanished. He worked that through out of sheer desperation.

When you talk about people being insane, and point out the negative aspects of the race, Ruburt becomes highly uncomfortable because to him this means he has to protect himself against them, and justifies his behavior. On the other hand he becomes angry and frightened because it is precisely to protect himself against such “people, activities, and events” that he has tried to isolate himself.

If you did not know that Ruburt could indeed manage to dance, though not in the wildest fashion, then you would not believe it when “faced” with the reality of his behavior around the house. You would think he could not do it.

Gradually his belief system led to more restrictive behavior, even to some extent impeding inner flow. The psychic was suspect in the beginning, as it seemed to conflict with his writing ideas. This was largely cleared through my books and Seven.