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Ruburt’s statements a few moments earlier, regarding his feelings, concerning his future, were and are important. What he accepted as a temporary condition he fears to be a permanent one—that is, the temporary positions. He expected more. Unfortunately he then projected a present situation into the future, which to some extent, resulted in a lack of mobility; the present conditions then seen as continuing indefinitely.

He, as I explained earlier, has a strong spontaneous self, which he had been taught to fear. It was because of distrust of this spontaneous self that he accepted your suggestions so readily and without argument. This did indeed result in further lack of mobility, with strong emotional blockages because of his feeling for you. This explains some of the difficulties incidentally in your intimate life together.

—then you should see some fairly immediate improvement when he realizes these steps will be taken. He has frozen up out of fear. The actions that he has taken he has not approved of. Those he wanted to take seemed, for inner or outer reasons, forbidden, and in frustration he adopted the symptoms.

You must understand that he will need your help now in order to use it. This is rather important. He will be afraid of making errors; and fears that you may blame him for them.

Your personality has indeed grown and matured in most respects since our sessions. Ruburt’s fear, once set off, unfortunately serves to release unreasoning childhood fears that then trigger these sensitivities.

His mother was immobile, and yet as a child he had to rely on her. It is his fear that sensitized him again to old issues.

You understand that because of both his father and his grandfather, particularly his grandfather, he grew up believing it a weakness to work for others, because of the immobility involved. His grandfather as a salesman walked about freely, and his grandfather feared working for others. This aside from the writing.

He did wait long before looking for work, and fought every step of the way, until he feared you would simply become furious. But he became more immobile, you see.

The symptoms became aggravated again after he signed up for next year’s work schedule at nursery school. Consciously he was pleased. Unconsciously, this verified his fear, that next year also he would make no money writing. He was pleased with the raise on a conscious level, but felt it blood money.

He has felt hampered down to the most minute circumstances of his daily life. Some of this, of course, projections. You hit upon several important items in your own pendulum sessions. Hearing them voiced helped Ruburt temporarily, and then the old fear clamped down.

(“We’d like to know how to keep those old fears from clamping down again, once they’ve been released.”)

You may let it ride for now, and there is some blockage here on this particular question alone, caused by fear. Nor is it wise to overlook the fear, you see.

He has been afraid to try anything new for fear of failure. Not through fear that a book would not be published necessarily, but through fear that the, publication would mean nothing. This is why the dream book is not finished.

(“Yes, but now that he understands more, his fear should fade away.”)

One of the symptoms, you understand, is a fear of his own spontaneity.

And therefore a fear or distrust of what may be said in these sessions. It is for this reason that I have given him evidential material, you see, in other respects, so that he could see for himself.

(“Which symptom is related to a fear of his own spontaneity?”)

This has been rather explained earlier this evening, and in previous sessions: Previous conditioning, and we explained why he became sensitized to this. The fear of spontaneity is what made him so passive in following suggestions of yours, to which he did not agree.