“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Here I suggest a brief break, as the nature of the material requires it.

A small remark here, in line with your discussion during break. Our good Ruburt has amazed his new director by his sudden bubbling good spirits, and bewildering exuberance.

We will take the personality of your director, Ruburt, if we may. Here not only desire but expectation brought about his directorship. He wanted, and finally expected, some kind of domain of his own. Being a part of no real community as a youngster, being unsure even of family unit, he first sought out various organizational positions, and governmental environments, as a man might wrap a cloak about him to protect himself from the elements.

You would have moved into it on the 13th. Ruburt, mainly, worked out the problem psychologically, actually living in the house in the psychological field. Her—and I say her advisedly, since here Ruburt operated as a woman—her disappointment was instant but superficial.

(It might be worth noting here that the property was appraised by an assessor from Ithaca, NY, rather than one from Elmira. As it happened, at the time all three of the Veteran’s Administration appraisers who are based in Elmira were out of town on vacation; therefore the bank in Elmira had to call in a representative from out of town to evaluate the property—and one who had never seen the property before. Jane and I have speculated as to what the assessor’s report might have stated had it been compiled by a local man familiar with the property.)

With the present heating system, high expectations would have increased its efficiency. Low expectations would have decreased its efficiency. Your fear of commitment was indeed an element here. You have both steadily doubted your practical efficiency in a material universe, and you will continue to do so, for with your present attitudes you will not test your efficiency. Or if you dare test it, your fears will defeat you, and only serve to convince you further of this inefficiency.