“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

We will take the personality of your director, Ruburt, if we may. Here not only desire but expectation brought about his directorship. He wanted, and finally expected, some kind of domain of his own. Being a part of no real community as a youngster, being unsure even of family unit, he first sought out various organizational positions, and governmental environments, as a man might wrap a cloak about him to protect himself from the elements.

So he attempted to wrap himself in the cloak of organization. He remained however basically anonymous. His desire to belong and his expectation also became stronger. The gallery represents a unit of community affiliation in which he can exert some power, and yet be within a community unit.

His aggressiveness against community structures will be used constructively, in an attempt to mold the structure to his own conception of what is good, and yet force the community as a whole to recognize him as someone with whom it must deal.

I have said enough along these lines. It is true that you are improving. You remain as uncommitted to a united community, and this has something to do with your aversion to buying property which would tend to tie you down to a community, even while it would also fulfill a need to own land.