“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This was our second consecutive session without the board, though I had it out simply to use as a handy writing board on my lap. Jane said she was glad we no longer needed to use it. We thought that we would let the session open itself, however it might. By 8:50 or so, she was again somewhat nervous, though she said to a lesser degree than usual.

(Throughout this session Jane maintained the same deliberate, normal tone of voice; also, her rate of pacing was quite deliberate and much slower than the previous few sessions. Her eyes darkened as usual. Only once did she notice a change in her hands, and it is noted when it happened.

(When 9 PM arrived, Jane stood up, began to pace and to dictate.)

(“What do you have to say about the psychiatrist’s idea, that all this is merely Jane’s subconscious talking?”)

(Break at 9:37. We had gathered a good amount of material in just 37 minutes, and this in spite of the fact that Jane spoke at a slower rate than usual. We wondered if Seth was using time distortion.

(Jane had no dissociation during this monologue. She now told me that in the beginning of the session she had deliberately “held off” any dissociation, being quite upset by the psychiatrist’s letter. She also reported that her hands felt fat again, and upon examination her fingers did seem to be somewhat swollen, compared to their usual state. Both forefingers especially looked enlarged. However, the phenomena did not return for the balance of the session. And since she exhibited no voice changes this need not be mentioned for the balance of the session. Resume at 9:42.)

(Break at 10:02. During this recitation, Jane was pretty much dissociated. Resume at 10:08.)

(In the above paragraph the phrases “meaning the personality,” and “a much larger sense,” came clearly to my mind just before Jane voiced them. The match was exact both times. For some reason it made an impression on me, whereas many times while Jane is dictating I have had a thought similar to the one Jane was about to voice. I might be too sensitive about this instance simply because of John Bradley’s telepathic experience in the 26th session.)

(Break at 10:30. Jane said that during this delivery she was “far out”, although she was aware that she was voicing some new and startling material… She reports that as a delivery nears its end, Seth begins to recede slowly, and at the same time she slowly regains conscious awareness of her surroundings. There is nothing sudden or startling involved. Resume at 10:35.)

(Jane laughed.) There is of course an apparent contradiction here, but it is only apparent. It is certainly to you contradictory, your dilemma being this: if you have another self-conscious self, then (with a laugh) why aren’t you aware of it? (Laugh.)

(Break at 11:02. Again, Jane said that she was pretty well dissociated during the above delivery. Resume at 11:06.)

(Jane mentioned receiving this flash at supper time tonight.

(As she delivered Seth’s answer, Jane walked over to the couch and picked up the dozing Willy. He merely yawned and stretched in her arms.)

(End at 11:35. Jane was quite dissociated in the beginning of this monologue, but she reports that as it drew to a close the state grew less.)

(Having lived here for four years now, we of course have become friends with Miss Callahan, who is a gentle person, very shy and yet quite independent, according to her relatives. Jane at various times has taken care of her mail when she traveled, and at Christmas time we exchanged small presents.

(Miss Callahan was referred to by Frank Watts in the 1st session; Frank Watts stated that she was a mutual acquaintance of the three of us. Yet when Jane asked Miss Callahan if she remembered any Frank Watts, shortly after the first session, Miss C could not place him; on the other hand, she did not claim definitely that she did not know, or had not known, Frank Watts. Since she has at times exhibited a faulty memory, and suffers from hypertension, Jane and I did not think much, for or against, Miss C’s inability to place Frank Watts. We did not press the matter.

(On July 29/63, Jane had a very vivid dream, in color, involving Miss Callahan. In the dream, Jane saw Miss C in a hospital; Miss C was very thin, and dressed in black. She had been crying, and tried to tell Jane something to the effect that she, Miss C, was going away. She was very unhappy and sad. In this hospital where Miss C was, things were also being sold.

(The next day, Jane visited Miss Callahan, to ask for the use of her telephone since our television set was not working, and we needed the help of a repairman. Jane had not seen Miss C for a month. Jane was very surprised when Miss C, apparently quite upset, told her that she had just learned from her doctor that she needed operations on both of her eyes, for the removal of cataracts. But Miss C had to wait for some weeks or months yet, until the cataracts progressed to a certain point before the operations could be done. Miss C then asked Jane if she would bring in the mail, etc., while she was in the hospital.

(Jane mentioned her dream to Miss Callahan, but she did not tell Miss C she had seen her crying, or dressed in black. In her notes on the dream, Jane wrote that she hoped the black did not symbolize death for Miss C. Jane was quite relieved to learn that while Miss C did have to go to the hospital, it was for a more or less routine operation, and nothing more serious.

(There was no way for us to help Miss Callahan, so we left the hospital at about 8:00 PM, to prepare for tonight’s session. While we were with Miss C, however, Jane received a flash from Seth that was quite disturbing to her.

(This was to the effect that Jane’s dream, back in July of 1963, had been correct, but that Jane had been too eager to put a less serious implication upon it. The real meaning of the dream was that, rather than go through the operations on her eyes, Miss Callahan had decided subconsciously to die; and that she had reached this decision at the same time that Jane dreamed it.