“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The resentment was basic. The ESP book brought this out; that is, did not cause the resentment—the resentment was there—but allowed the resentment release. He did not feel that the publisher shared any enthusiasm from the beginning. He did feel that Wollheim did, and had no resentment toward Wollheim, though he did not publish the book. He felt Wollheim’s enthusiasm.

It seeks outlet and must find it, and must find it a manner that satisfies the creative abilities. The excitement need not be physical, though it will find some reflection in physical terms. He has enormous energy at his disposal, a large portion of which has been misdirected in the form of symptoms, and partially out of resentment.

The power of his energies, unfortunately, can be seen quite clearly in the severity of the symptoms that the energy formed when it was so misdirected. The personal material on his background that I gave you is all part of this, of course. He felt extreme resentment at Fell generally. Since he did not want to hurt anyone, this ricocheted, affecting him. (F. Fell published the ESP book.)

If fear or resentment stops up the flow, then their origin, untranslated, unredeemed and unsublimated, causes physical symptoms and disorders. The system will right itself if given any chance. The poetry is his best touchstone here. He was angry at Fell for rather obvious reasons, but the reasons involved his work, which touched upon his energy, and this caused then the unfortunate comparison between Fell and Ruburt’s father. He reacted then as Ruburt’s mother reacted when deserted by the father. He adopted the same symptoms if not the disease itself.

[...] You did not want to perform well because you are resentful. Then you were resentful over the resentment whenever you became closely aware of it.

[...] The small but frequent breaks in the fine lines represent those times when the resentments break through. The resentment, carried far enough, could affect your work to such a degree that it forced you to leave, which is exactly what one portion of you wants—and that portion does not care how this is done, though it does not want your painting affected.

[...] This is resentment.

The resentment felt by the tenants was picked up by her, and felt as a threat. [...]

She was very sensitive therefore to telepathic suggestions sent her way by tenants, and felt that they did not like her, highly resented her as the new landlord. [...]

[...] First of all there is no need feeling resentful. [...]

[...] Nevertheless the lacks that exist, for example in your landlady, will bring about further lacks, and resentment on your part only hurts you. [...]

Your resentment of Spaziani when he sold was projected upon him. [...] Other elements were involved, but the strength of your resentment, its charge, had to do with your own feelings about yourself and this place, as did Ruburt’s with Piper.

[...] I also thought that this might stem from Jane’s expressed feelings of anger and resentment before the session, and her demands that Seth help. [...]

[...] You have negatively assumed that you could find nothing suitable—no place, that is—and resented the time involved. [...]

[...] So both of you have resented the other for not making a definite decision to move.

[...] Once they were meant to promote your psychological understanding, but now they can only impede your progress; and you are also slightly resentful at Ruburt, feeling that he is somewhat responsible, by still maintaining his symptoms, for your own.

[...] You feel you are helping him sufficiently enough through all your efforts, and withhold this more positive approach out of that resentment. [...]

This also serves to punish you for the resentment, since by not giving this more positive support, which incidentally is far more effective than you would imagine—you also to some degree help to hold back that which you both want so badly.

You are also, as you know, relatively (underlined) of a solitary nature, and to some degree, and because of misinterpretation, distrustful and resentful at the thought that suggestion is so important between individuals. [...]

[...] I know you understand this—but carried to the extreme, that resentment would allow you barely enough to live on, and you actually would refuse to make money, because you so resent the high taxes connected with a good living. [...]

[...] Then, when you began to make decent money, you resented giving it to the government—for the reasons just given, and because the government, it seemed, was built upon beliefs with which you could find no accord. [...]

(“Why did I translate the tax resentment into the voice or mouth difficulty?”)

Simply a beautiful symbol of communication, for you wanted to voice your resentment again, but covered it over. [...]

At times it masquerades as a distaste for material possessions, but often it is simply also resentment. [...] (Long pause.) You have been afraid of success for the reasons stated, yet resentful that you did not have the material acquisitions that go with it. [...]

[...] A part of you, however, does strongly resent the material benefits that you did derive from your early commercial work. [...]

This resulted in an active resentment against such symbols, which actually prevented you from acquiring them. [...]

[...] It now no longer exists, but they still resent the breaking up; and Ruburt’s yells, quite involuntary, represented in fact the death throes of the symptoms, and the part of the self who had accepted them as an attempt to solve problems.

[...] The slowdown however gave him ambiguous feelings, lest success on his part meant further time from your own painting, which you would resent; so that in that respect continued success at tours would be at the expense of your valued painting time.

[...] Your mood was very poor, and he felt that you were angry and resentful at him because of its publication. [...]

You were angry and resentful. [...]

[...] He was afraid that you would resent his success in something that seemed too spontaneous.

[...] He saw instantly that you resented the publication of the book, as he had seen earlier that you resented the publication of The Rebellers. You resented that book very much.

[...] He must indeed, completely, rid himself of his strong resentments at his mother. [...] He cannot resent the environment nor his parent, since he chose both. [...]

The mother wanted success for the child, and yet Ruburt felt (pause) that success would also be resented by the mother, that the mother would be jealous of it. [...]

[...] Resentment had a lot to do with Ruburt’s banging around. Not resentment at you, Joseph, but resentment because he felt guilty for not being satisfied. [...]

[...] She resented this very much. She also resented your son.

[...] When Ruburt’s resentment finally flares, that is no time for me to be around.

[...] He has felt guilty over the thought of taking any space from you, and the guilt made him feel resentful.

[...] When you do not you build up inner resentments that mitigate against your welfare. [...]

[...] You would do much better by being frank with him, for he becomes irritated and resentful when he feel you are upset, and is left to guess at the cause. [...]

In your case, I meant to mention (in the last session) that the time of taxes has some involvement with your difficulties, for reason tells you they must be paid, while your emotions are resentful. [...]

4. I do resent paying the taxes.
[All of these contribute to the physical effects.]

He felt you resented his being home. You used to say “You don’t know what it is to punch a time clock,” he thought resentfully. [...]

[...] On the other hand he resents the slightest inconvenience that is not connected with his goals, and rises up vehemently against even the slightest restraint that he considers beside the board, or aside from your joint and individual purposes.

[...] At the same time he felt you would begin to resent the time spent from your work, but you would cling to the job like a lifeline until it was too late.

[...] The exaggerated weekend symptoms are related to two factors: One, the chores that he feels you thoroughly resent, and two, the Sunday situation when your mother is home. [...]

[...] To brood or worry, or become resentful, is as regrettable as it would be if you, say, painted a big X over one of your paintings because you were dissatisfied with a detail or two. Over a period of time, resentments X out large areas of otherwise productive experience. [...]

[...] I seem to be a slow learner; either that or my accumulated resentments seem to be so deeply ingrained that I should work much harder at eradicating old beliefs.)

[...] You wanted to communicate love of our work, and instead you felt that you could only communicate resentment at what you felt had been done to it. [...]

Now, my dear Joseph… You have also been jealous of Ruburt’s part in our sessions, and at times highly resentful, particularly of the attention he received when others were present. [...]

As far as the sessions were concerned, he felt for some time that you demanded them, and on the other hand resented his part in them. [...]

[...] (Long pause.) You resented it when he began typing some of the sessions. [...]

[...] At times before he buried the feeling, he resented it when you sat at his (underlined) table. [...]

He should remember to recognize resentment when he feels it, and then to realize that the resentment can be dismissed, can fall away from him. [...] Then have him imagine plucking out the resentment by the roots and replacing it with a positive feeling. [...]

[...] In repression the resentment is shoved beneath and ignored. [...]

A very small point, but interesting: he resents ironing, this because his mother was overly particular. This resentment is on the part of the spontaneous self in the main.

[...] Never mind resenting the lost time. [...]

[...] This will also dull the edges of any resentments he may have regarding his own parents.

The idea of Mother’s Day made him half resentful and half sorrowful because of the poor relationship between him and his mother (long pause), and he had hoped for further improvements in time for his birthday.

He is making an endeavor to speak to you, not only in the resentments, but wishes. There was therefore interaction last evening when he felt resentful on a sensitive matter. [...]

[...] The poor lunches on nursery school days were the result of resentment because of the school hours.

[...] I bitterly resent the cutting in the first place, and the time that will be spent away from Mass Events, now, as I do all the work necessary to make our points. [...]

[...] In the dream’s meaning, she chased after him, and in that context you felt one portion of yourself making demands upon another portion that resented the emotional involvement, the emotional outbursts that that portion naturally expressed. [...]

[...] Obviously, you want to work in peace: you resent the intrusion of having to take the time to express anger or disappointment. [...]

The dream of course involved your conflicts over Seth Speaks in the Dutch edition, and your feeling on the one hand that you must speak out to Prentice, while at the same time resenting the loss of your peace of mind. [...]