“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I might add that today, Thursday, Jane experienced a dramatic further release in her neck and other areas of her body, so we are getting results with our program. Her new release began this morning as we worked with the pendulum, and she can attach her report to this session if she wants to. We voiced the idea that three key words seemed to symbolize her physical hassles—fears of scorn, criticism, and flamboyance. As the morning passed and we continued to exchange ideas, we saw of course that all these reflected Jane’s fear or distrust of her own nature—a situation that simply must be remedied. I made a brief note about the three words on a sheet of our pendulum questions.

(Our exploration of “flamboyance” came about through Seth’s use of “extravagant” in this session, as I scanned the original notes this morning while coming up with some new questions. I guess the realization that the basic mistrust of one’s own nature could have such dire results was what triggered our conscious realization that we could do something about the whole business of symptoms, etc. Jane began to show results as we discussed the subject; after lunch, she was so loose, including her knees, that she wondered whether she could get to the john—which she did, by the way. But she reported “new things” releasing in her head area, and the back of the neck, that had been “tight as a fist.” Very encouraging, and we plan to continue working with these thoughts.

(After lunch we discussed her own notes on the morning’s work, and stressed that she should use the word “flamboyant” as part of her own true nature, attaching only positive meanings to it, being proud of it, realizing that it gave expression to her abilities in a way that few could match. This of course meant, as we said, that she needn’t go about any longer pretending to be like the normal housewife next door, or whatever inanity—since nothing could be further from the truth: She is not like the normal housewife next door, should not want to be, should not be in alarm at their criticism, and should thank God for whatever abilities she has of her own that do inevitably make her different, superior, talented, etc., with something unique to offer the world—an opportunity few possess, and that should be used with the greatest joy and abandon. After all, I said, people come to her for help, she doesn’t go to them. To stand in fear of the criticism or scorn of others is now, we see, the worst possible behavior. This must be eliminated, and we intend to work unceasingly at the task until its accomplished. I see no reasons to prevent our succeeding.

(I also stressed that our changing attitudes would be sure to change our attitudes toward others—that instead of trying to act “normally” toward strangers when they came here, especially when they were unannounced, we should simply be ourselves, secure in the abilities of our own natures; if any of these actions could be taken as “flamboyant” in a negative way, then so be it. That would be their hassle, not ours, I added. Our goal now is to simply speak our minds, if in a nice way, usually, to others, and let the chips fall where they may. I added that it would be ironic and hilarious indeed that if this new behavior brought to us everything we’d always wanted for our life’s work.

[...] Does he equate flamboyancy with showing off in a negative fashion, showing that being physically retiring could be construed as a virtue. [...]

[...] Now you want to begin to encourage through your questions the repressed feelings also of hope, of expression, even of natural flamboyant behavior. [...]

In the past, Ruburt didn’t realize fully that his nature was both flamboyant and conservative—that his nature was protected by a natural inner caution that would make the path for his flamboyancy clear. [...]

There are traces in your present experience of your probable selves, even as there are signs in each individual of all the great talents shown and developed so flamboyantly by a few. [...]

Other portions of the personality, while recognizing this, still felt that the personality as a whole needed to impose some restraints upon what it regarded as flamboyantly spontaneous qualities. [...] It chose a parent whose emotions were highly unrestrained, so that the parent’s action could serve as a constant reminder of its own flamboyant emotions.

This procedure, in which Ruburt sits quietly, is indeed less flamboyant than our previous methods, but it has many advantages, and it is beneficial that we experiment along various lines.

There is more there, but it is a cameo situation involving many important ingredients, where he feels that letting go means he is too flamboyant for you. [...]

[...] At the same time all of those flamboyant, creative, spontaneous, emotional surges that emerge normally from the unconscious become feared and projected outward, then, upon enemies, other races and creeds.

[...] One thing I can give him; buy time for him to do whatever he wants, be free of family and money problems, if he worries about me he isn’t going to feel responsible to get a job and my symptoms give him an excuse not to socially (old ideas) and the symptoms cut down on my flamboyance which has class to express itself in. [...]

[...] Or rather, the personality will manifest itself forcibly as a woman in most flamboyant terms, because it has thus far not used its abilities nor expressed the strong intuitive portion of its nature.

[...] I will tell you the reasons later, but regardless of his flamboyance and seeming disregard, he needs space division of certain activities, and privacy from the outside world. [...]