“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

8. Even 11 years later, I’m certainly far away from experiencing the concept-essence of any given session, as Seth suggests may be possible. I’m expressing contradictory beliefs, obviously, but it seems unlikely that I can use my abilities in such a fashion, even though I tell myself I’d like to.

20. In this appendix, the presentations from sessions 28 and 83 contain Seth’s comments as to whether he’s “a secondary or split personality of Ruburt’s” (to quote him from the latter). On her own, Jane expressed concern about secondary personalities in Chapter 6 of The Seth Material; see her account of our meetings with Dr. Instream. Additional, related material can be found in Chapter 2 of The Coming of Seth, and in the sessions dealing with “Augustus” in Chapter 6 of Personal Reality.

By then I’d lost many months from my job as a commercial artist, which was work I’d returned to several years earlier to help ease our financial pressures. I was 44 years old — and, as I recognized after the sessions began, at a point in life where I greatly needed more penetrating insights into the meaning of existence. So did Jane, even though she was almost 10 years younger. As the sessions became part of our joint reality, we gradually came to understand that the illness I struggled with was a disguised expression of rebellion for both of us. We were very dissatisfied with our status quo: After years of work, Jane had managed to publish but a few poems and a few pieces of science fantasy (several short stories and two brief novels), and in my own view I wasn’t making it as the kind of artist I wanted to be. We were driven to know more — about art, about writing, about the human condition, about everything. My own need, as well as Jane’s, struck deep responses within her psyche.