“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The ape on one level represented the animal instincts feared by Ruburt’s mother and grandfather as well, so Ruburt learned to look upon them askance. These instincts are the earthly doors of the soul’s energy. Who closes those doors does so at some peril.

(9:57.) Give us a moment.... At one point Ruburt saw the ape still male, and then a portion of himself sitting at the library table, for in your position it is the animal instincts themselves that propel you to search for answers, to write books, to explore in your particular way. The ape was at home in the library, and his face was compassionate. Identification with the instinct brings compassion, and that compassion and wonder spark the creative instincts. Ruburt’s idea was still one of controlling those instincts and his “animal” abilities. On another level, because the ape was in the library, compassionate and understanding, Ruburt was seeing symbolically the force of his own physical nature, quite at home with itself, and at home in the psychic library of the mind.

The ape episode served to connect him in trust with his own deepest instincts, and he saw that those were loving. The ape could not have appeared however until after the blond man forcibly threw out that negative image. He dashed it against the wall. The pygmy Indian with the bent legs emerged, signifying Ruburt’s grandfather identification. That identification is simply one of the reasons behind his concern with spontaneity and order, as I hope I have explained earlier this evening.

(10:17.) Give us a moment.... These represented the power of the body not being used, the animal instincts denied. The vitality. He identified with them perfectly however as himself, or versions. The woman’s was a more possible version of himself. The male figure however represented the fact that he believes that strong muscular motion is a male characteristic, and not one that he feels belongs to mentally oriented males. In this life he never sought tall, strongly developed, muscular, large-boned males out, but avoided them. He felt they would not understand his mental properties. Here indeed he saw a symbolic representation of Ruburt—not one that could be physically materialized with his bone structure as a woman, but a figure of idealistic physical proportions that also possessed great mental faculties to match.

Give us a moment.... In terms perhaps difficult to describe the muscles run through the mind’s journeys, and speak out their own questions, even as the soul speaks out its questions through the flesh. Ruburt’s book is barely begun, or the experiences connected with it and in it. The body and the consciousness are learning to walk and function in a new way. The animal’s and the soul’s comprehension are one, and not alienated. Ruburt’s body is completely releasing itself, but it is of utmost importance that he go along with the process, and this experience was meant to provide the necessary connections between body and soul.

(I protested, saying that I hoped she wouldn’t “say something now that I’ll wish later I’d written down.” For one of the few times during these sessions, I refused to pick up my pen and notebook. Even though Jane repeated that she was willing to give the material. She needed the rest. Seth of course had no problems; he was all set to go.

(“All right then,” Jane said finally, “I’ll just tell you this: Our whole idea of reincarnation is all screwed up. To untangle it would be really confusing. The notion of one life at a time, in any time period, is bullshit—the psyche is so rich that it can have more than one life at a time—like your Nabene and Roman lives together, in the first century A.D. But if you tell people that you’ll get them all confused....”

(I said I’d been wondering about the apparent conflicts I’d come up with concerning those two lives; if my intuitions, or recall or whatever, were correct, I’d set two lives simultaneously for myself, one in Italy and one in the Mideast. There had to be explanations.