“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt’s grandfather gambled compulsively in an attempt to hide his sexual wants, and deny them. He did not trust the body—his or anyone else’s. There is no need to go into his reasons here.

(10:02.) Give us a moment.... In learning to trust the changes in his body occurring now, Ruburt is at the same time learning to trust his own instincts, and the creaturehood of himself. In your society that can be difficult, and he needed some connections. You are also quite correct, in that the ape also acted as an animal medicine man-woman (as in Personal Reality), symbolically acting out a part that once very well could have been performed in fact. Ruburt has been reading about shamans. Their connections with animals are little understood. In his own way however Ruburt began a shaman’s journey for himself, letting the psyche’s images become alive, and the inner workings of the mind made more obvious.

It was not necessarily a negative identification. That negative quality emerged only when he felt the need for greater protection, when he threatened to become uncivilized—going against his society in unforeseen ways. When he became important at all in world terms, he could no longer be a pygmy, and therefore lost a part of that identification that he felt had protected him against his mother and the feared spontaneity or instincts. So he would become shorter.

(I protested, saying that I hoped she wouldn’t “say something now that I’ll wish later I’d written down.” For one of the few times during these sessions, I refused to pick up my pen and notebook. Even though Jane repeated that she was willing to give the material. She needed the rest. Seth of course had no problems; he was all set to go.