“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The other images—the two people—male and female, were taller than Ruburt is. The man was seen larger than life, in excellent physical condition.

(10:17.) Give us a moment.... These represented the power of the body not being used, the animal instincts denied. The vitality. He identified with them perfectly however as himself, or versions. The woman’s was a more possible version of himself. The male figure however represented the fact that he believes that strong muscular motion is a male characteristic, and not one that he feels belongs to mentally oriented males. In this life he never sought tall, strongly developed, muscular, large-boned males out, but avoided them. He felt they would not understand his mental properties. Here indeed he saw a symbolic representation of Ruburt—not one that could be physically materialized with his bone structure as a woman, but a figure of idealistic physical proportions that also possessed great mental faculties to match.

There were in-between episodes where he saw himself more or less an adolescent, weak and spindly. That represented a period in his life where he felt physically insecure. At his grandfather’s death he felt betrayed, then, because he had felt his grandfather invulnerable. It was then, though he forgot, that he was given the elixir to strengthen him.

(“All right then,” Jane said finally, “I’ll just tell you this: Our whole idea of reincarnation is all screwed up. To untangle it would be really confusing. The notion of one life at a time, in any time period, is bullshit—the psyche is so rich that it can have more than one life at a time—like your Nabene and Roman lives together, in the first century A.D. But if you tell people that you’ll get them all confused....”