“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I will endeavor to do so, and believe I can to some extent. The adoption of the arthritis symptoms did have some mother identification, but also they were adopted simply because they were symptoms with which Ruburt was familiar. (Eyes open, emphatic.)

He did wait long before looking for work, and fought every step of the way, until he feared you would simply become furious. But he became more immobile, you see.

(“Yes, but you’d never know it, watching him.”)

The symptoms became aggravated again after he signed up for next year’s work schedule at nursery school. Consciously he was pleased. Unconsciously, this verified his fear, that next year also he would make no money writing. He was pleased with the raise on a conscious level, but felt it blood money.

Give us time for a moment. (Pause.) If, and whenever possible, a New York trip would benefit both of you, incidentally. He has felt held in for some time. He was also frightened because of your illness, and literally afraid to make a move. He shut off usual methods of expression, trying to be a good example to others. But this fit in beautifully with earlier conditioning.

He has been afraid to try anything new for fear of failure. Not through fear that a book would not be published necessarily, but through fear that the, publication would mean nothing. This is why the dream book is not finished.

(“I did, and do, consider it an excellent achievement, and always have. But I can see how he felt the way he did, in the light of my expressed opinions about Fell. Was it a poor idea of mine to insist that Jane finish the dream book before sending it out again?” [After it was twice rejected.])

Unfortunately it was, and yet he needed to do much work on it, and in the overall you will gain. Had it been accepted, sent out and accepted later, but before this present date, the symptoms would have vanished.

Do you have questions? The symptoms will vanish as quickly as he feels restraints lifted. But he will need your encouragement, for he is himself afraid of lifting them, you see.

(“Yes, but now that he understands more, his fear should fade away.”)