“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

We find in the present personality knots, whereby action is not allowed freedom, particularly in terms of expansion. There is strong concentrated energy turned inward, but it is not turned inward far enough to be effective.

It is turned inward mainly in terms of the ego. There is awareness here of the inner self, but the main energy is knotted in tensions and exhaustions. At the same time the personality does not refresh its energies. If the energies of the personality were turned further inward, or on the other hand turned further outward toward the outside world, there would be an improvement in terms of additional, recharged energy.

The situation here can be eased, and it is within the ability of the present personality to do so. There is an inner generosity and a psychic, if you will forgive the word, sensitivity, that will be of great benefit to the personality. There is also, and I believe always has been, the desire on the part of the personality to untie or dissolve this knot of immobilized energy.

At one time the personality was involved with very early paper manufacturing, in I believe Belgium. The personality was then a male. The personality has always been involved with communication in one form or another in various lives.

Until this life the communications involved have been in outward manifestation. This time there is on the part of the personality an awareness of inner realities, of which the personality was not before concerned with. There is also a bewilderment, since in the past communication was easy. Now there is awareness of that which is not easy to communicate.

There is now an earnest desire to travel inward, but in the past the personality was involved with outward communication. The personality will always have communication as a main aspect. Nevertheless this life begins a new phase, where the communication involved will be, indeed, of a different variety. The knot of energy, among other things, quite a few other things, is caused by the temporary inability to change the focus of interests from outward to inward methods of communication.

In the past lives, again, desire for communication was strong. It is strong now. However, it is as if the personality stands before another door, where the abilities for communication can turn the knob, but he will not turn the knob. The personality stands in an anteroom, with all his knotted energies, in indecision, and will not open the door leading inward, and will not turn in the other direction, in the direction from which he has come, to the door that leads outward. It is the indecision here that is important.

Were the personality content between the two doors, there would for the present be little problems. I am not saying that the individual is ready to plunge headlong into a world of energetic psychic endeavor at this time, either. I am merely saying that the personality only now is discovering the inner reality of which so many are ignorant.

There was a village in the southern part of France. 1230. The personality was a primitive mason. A crib turns over, a child is killed. 1645. Belgium. The personality died in infancy. Later the personality returns to Belgium after a lapse of fifteen years. Also a drummer boy in a civil war. There has been trouble with a hand, also an ear. At times a throat difficulty.

In general in the present, the personality should relate firmly with outer reality, and also come to grips with the whole self. There should be moderation, but a moderation that allows for spontaneity and a disciplined program of inner evaluations. The personality has been twice a man, once a woman, and once a female child who did not reach adulthood.

There was no personal connection between the three of you in past lives.

There was however a telepathic connection. The present personality of our visitor was aware of the sessions before Philip mentioned them. I expect that the association will continue. The number fifteen is an important one to our visitor.

Once the personality was blind, physically, and evolved a communication by means of the texture of a particular type of cloth, the hemp. He could, for he was then a male, he could by educating his fingers, distinguish the most slightest variation of roughness and texture.

He was blinded in his teens, an accident, boys playing with stones. The fingers were very sensitive, and since then he has always developed the ability to use his hands to advantage in nimble ways. He was then brawny, strident. This is the personality’s first experience with being a mother.

The daughter of the present personality, however, was once a sister. There were difficulties between the sisters. Now this relationship is one that irons out old difficulties. The youngest son was once the personality’s father. Is it any wonder that the conscious mind does not retain in one life memory of its other existences?