“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It is turned inward mainly in terms of the ego. There is awareness here of the inner self, but the main energy is knotted in tensions and exhaustions. At the same time the personality does not refresh its energies. If the energies of the personality were turned further inward, or on the other hand turned further outward toward the outside world, there would be an improvement in terms of additional, recharged energy.

The situation here can be eased, and it is within the ability of the present personality to do so. There is an inner generosity and a psychic, if you will forgive the word, sensitivity, that will be of great benefit to the personality. There is also, and I believe always has been, the desire on the part of the personality to untie or dissolve this knot of immobilized energy.

I am not suggesting here that this individual turn all focus away from the outer world, far from it. I am saying that a release is necessary, and then a balance will be maintained.

In the past lives, again, desire for communication was strong. It is strong now. However, it is as if the personality stands before another door, where the abilities for communication can turn the knob, but he will not turn the knob. The personality stands in an anteroom, with all his knotted energies, in indecision, and will not open the door leading inward, and will not turn in the other direction, in the direction from which he has come, to the door that leads outward. It is the indecision here that is important.

(Break at 9:34. Jane was dissociated as usual. Lorraine told us that her first name was Meredith, and that her mother in naming her Meredith Lorraine intended to call her Mary Lou, but never did so. There is a similarity here to the entity name, Marleno.

Nevertheless, the actual individual dream world created by each individual will bear a close resemblance to the physical environment which is also created by the individual. And here we come to a subject that I mentioned briefly the other evening, and even now we will but touch upon it.

There is still much to be said here. Nor was I flattered at Ruburt’s surprise upon his discovery that what I told you in the past, concerning your friends, was coming to pass. He should have expected it. He is if anything more bullheaded than even I gave him credit for, and I gave him credit for a good deal of bullheadedness.

He is somewhat better than he was. He does not block me as much as he did, and our material has been coming through very well. However he could, it seems to me, show somewhat more confidence in my ability. He certainly shows enough confidence in his own, though not in his psychic ability. Ah, here he hedges. But I will run him around that particular hedge.