“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In the past lives, again, desire for communication was strong. It is strong now. However, it is as if the personality stands before another door, where the abilities for communication can turn the knob, but he will not turn the knob. The personality stands in an anteroom, with all his knotted energies, in indecision, and will not open the door leading inward, and will not turn in the other direction, in the direction from which he has come, to the door that leads outward. It is the indecision here that is important.

For the benefit of our visitor, let me say that action is the vitality of the universe from which all realties spring. This will make our discussion simpler. Again, no action may be withdrawn. Nothing is motionless. Therefore, when our visitor hesitates between his two doors, he is not motionless, but uses as much energy in indecision as should be expended in purposeful direction.

There is much involved. The individual, any individual, may construct many possibilities in the dream world. Having problems in the physical world, he may attempt to solve them through working them out on a dream basis, trying various solutions.

These possibilities then become actualities within the dream field. They exist as surely as they would if he acted in the same manner within the physical field. They are not myths, they are not imaginary, they do not vanish. They exist as reality within another field of actuality.

Consciously our individual may not know what he has done. Consciously he may not even know the problems which beset him, but which he has worked out on a subconscious level. But he will have chosen his solution, and in the physical world an event will shortly occur which will be close to a duplicate to one of those dreams which he has created.

When he dreamed the dream, and chose this possibility as the solution to his problems, he had already subconsciously chosen which event he would construct within the physical field.

Once the personality was blind, physically, and evolved a communication by means of the texture of a particular type of cloth, the hemp. He could, for he was then a male, he could by educating his fingers, distinguish the most slightest variation of roughness and texture.

He was near to being a beggar, living in poverty. Reaching out to passersby and touching their garments, he could accurately tell their social and economic standing through the touch of the cloth. He sang for money or whatever was given him.

He was blinded in his teens, an accident, boys playing with stones. The fingers were very sensitive, and since then he has always developed the ability to use his hands to advantage in nimble ways. He was then brawny, strident. This is the personality’s first experience with being a mother.

There is still much to be said here. Nor was I flattered at Ruburt’s surprise upon his discovery that what I told you in the past, concerning your friends, was coming to pass. He should have expected it. He is if anything more bullheaded than even I gave him credit for, and I gave him credit for a good deal of bullheadedness.

He is somewhat better than he was. He does not block me as much as he did, and our material has been coming through very well. However he could, it seems to me, show somewhat more confidence in my ability. He certainly shows enough confidence in his own, though not in his psychic ability. Ah, here he hedges. But I will run him around that particular hedge.

(End at 11:05. Jane was well dissociated. As the session ended she sat still, with her eyes still closed. It became apparent that she was having trouble opening them. She finally made it. “He didn’t want to go,” she said.