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(Last Thursday, 7/30, Jane and I were notified by the Veteran’s Administration that our application for a G.I. loan to purchase the Birch house was denied; the reason given was the steep dirt road leading up to the place.

(This cancellation raised many questions, since Seth had said nothing about any such event; on the other hand, his forecasts had all been prefaced by the word “if,” or similar ones. We thought briefly of asking for a special session to deal with the rather surprising turn of events, but decided against it, not wanting to cultivate any such dependent habits. My personal thought was that our expectations concerning the house had been in the process of change, the loss of the loan being the natural culmination of this.

(Of course we could still have obtained the house through a bank loan, which was offered to us, but we declined, feeling our ideas had changed in some way as yet unclear to us; yet we felt it was tied up with the material, meager as yet, that Seth has been giving us concerning the power of expectation.

(Again, Jane was not nervous before the session began. She did not feel very energetic, and as happened in the 75th session, 9 PM came and passed. She did begin dictating at 9:02, in a natural voice and in a deliberate, comfortable manner. Her eyes darkened as usual.)

(Break at 9:26. Jane was dissociated as usual. She delivered the above material with quite a few pauses, and appeared to be choosing her words carefully. She resumed in the same manner at 9:32.)

Ruburt’s almost instant reaction following the G.I. notice was, here, excellent. The aggressive feeling, unharnessed, would have caused difficulties at the gallery, and even in your personal relationship. His seeking out of his friend, your landlady, was beneficial, since in harmless talk and chatter much aggressive energy was harmlessly constructed.

The almost immediate bustling about in the apartment was even better. He was already geared for action and physical activity. A temper tantrum, such as dish throwing, would have been more effective than no action, though not the best sort of solution.

The constructive changing around of the apartment was instinctively correct, however, as was your agreement in both of these instances. Physical activity is an excellent way of using and controlling the effect of aggressive reaction, and will prevent the buildup of aggressive emotions into unsupervised physical constructions, and also prevent the habitual piling up of such aggressions, where detrimental constructions result continually.

(Break at 10:00. Jane was dissociated as usual. She said she now had the feeling that Seth would begin to discuss the affair of the house if we wanted him to. Talking it over, we decided to let Seth bring up the subject when he wanted to. So we asked no questions at break.

(By now, Jane’s delivery was becoming more forceful and animated, although she exhibited no voice changes of note.)

(Jane’s voice had become suddenly very loud. The next word she uttered was the word “indeed,” beginning the next sentence. I wrote it down as usual; then, walking over to me, grinning but also intent, she took the pen from my hand; she herself wrote the word down at the top of the page, in letters 3/4 of an inch high, and underlined it heavily for emphasis in no uncertain terms.)

(Again Jane took the pen from my hand and underlined the word “all” in the above sentence. Her voice was not so loud now.

Anything you gave him was more than he had, and much more than he ever expected. This is also quite important, and your mother knows this. That is why at times she suspects that Ruburt is in league with you against her, as indeed he is.

It did not you see before you realized that you were basically an artist, because then the two elements of talent and money were not in contact. You could have made a much less painful transition between complete commercialism and painting than you did, but here at a crucial moment was starry-eyed Ruburt, with his ideas of the poverty-stricken artist; and you can carry on from there.

(End at 11:06. Jane said she was strongly dissociated. Seth, she said, let her smoke as much as she wanted to, merely so that it would be easier for him to keep her so well in tow.

(End at 11:19. Jane was dissociated as usual. As she put it, she had been out all night.)