“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt’s almost instant reaction following the G.I. notice was, here, excellent. The aggressive feeling, unharnessed, would have caused difficulties at the gallery, and even in your personal relationship. His seeking out of his friend, your landlady, was beneficial, since in harmless talk and chatter much aggressive energy was harmlessly constructed.

Except for disappointment in his writing, Ruburt almost instinctively operates within a beneficial pattern in this respect, and you are certainly progressing. Nor is it foolish to consider improvements in your apartment under the circumstances of which we are speaking.

Now, what you would want to do with a seventy-two year old woman is beyond me. Forgive my humor, since the subject is serious. I couldn’t resist. But, all of these inner psychological realities color your expectations, just as Ruburt is entirely convinced that a writer of real merit cannot bear children.

Your talent is indeed excellent, and of the highest quality. Many artists have produced and received profit for their productions. There is certain work that you could do that could be compared to Ruburt’s science fiction; that is, commercial in that it brings in money, and yet expresses an intuitive and creative part of the personality and is not, as you say, hack work.

I am having a ball. It amuses me to have to point out these homey truths to you; and so that Ruburt doesn’t feel neglected, I’ll get to him again one of these days.

I do suggest that with your abilities, if you can straighten out your expectations, that you can be much more comfortably situated, and that you will be if you straighten out your expectations. I also suggest that you subconsciously and consciously knew from the first that Ruburt’s expectations along these lines coincided exactly with your own. You reinforced each other beautifully.

Anything you gave him was more than he had, and much more than he ever expected. This is also quite important, and your mother knows this. That is why at times she suspects that Ruburt is in league with you against her, as indeed he is.

You are bending over backward not to make money, both of you, though this is somewhat more understandable on Ruburt’s part, at least since his training is not as specific. When either of you demand or request more money, you feel like thieves. Ruburt has yet to manage his abilities competently but you have except for this distortive expectation which colors your constructions.

It did not you see before you realized that you were basically an artist, because then the two elements of talent and money were not in contact. You could have made a much less painful transition between complete commercialism and painting than you did, but here at a crucial moment was starry-eyed Ruburt, with his ideas of the poverty-stricken artist; and you can carry on from there.

Now, Ruburt also has his fear of money. He fears that it will be taken away, and therefore is afraid of having it to begin with. This is a highly ridiculous notion, caused by an infantile interpretation of events in his grandfather’s life, and also by the fear that his mother would steal him blind of anything that he possesses.

I will then end the session, as Ruburt is somewhat annoyed with me. Also, he fears that too much typing takes time from your work. Need I say that such material is extremely useful, and that knowledge is seldom so easily gained?

Ruburt sensed during your third visit to the house the mood of the people surrounding it. You did also. If you had taken the house you would have moved in on the 13th, and it would have worked out very well, because your expectations would have then built it up.