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If he manipulates that heritage well, then his expectations will work for him. The emotions are to be used and enjoyed as psychic building blocks. There is no law, however, stating that a man cannot instead throw these blocks to the winds and hope that when they fall down they might possibly fall into a castle.

(Break at 10:00. Jane was dissociated as usual. She said she now had the feeling that Seth would begin to discuss the affair of the house if we wanted him to. Talking it over, we decided to let Seth bring up the subject when he wanted to. So we asked no questions at break.

There is much leeway here. I would, if I may, suggest a reinforcement unfortunately in this sort of expectation. I would suggest on your part a rather illogical but perhaps understandable feeling of guilt, involving your father. I would suggest, indeed, that perhaps you hesitate as the first son, to be more financially solvent than your father is, and therefore in your own eyes symbolically shame him.

With him, however, the reinforcements are so perilously intertwined that I will make no attempt to straighten this out. His framework of personality is now so bound to this nonexistent truth that it would be dangerous for me to tamper with it.

I am having a ball. It amuses me to have to point out these homey truths to you; and so that Ruburt doesn’t feel neglected, I’ll get to him again one of these days.

Anything you gave him was more than he had, and much more than he ever expected. This is also quite important, and your mother knows this. That is why at times she suspects that Ruburt is in league with you against her, as indeed he is.

Now, Ruburt also has his fear of money. He fears that it will be taken away, and therefore is afraid of having it to begin with. This is a highly ridiculous notion, caused by an infantile interpretation of events in his grandfather’s life, and also by the fear that his mother would steal him blind of anything that he possesses.

(End at 11:06. Jane said she was strongly dissociated. Seth, she said, let her smoke as much as she wanted to, merely so that it would be easier for him to keep her so well in tow.