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(For a long while after that, nothing developed. I was upset by a visit to my parents the evening before. I had trouble keeping my eyes closed, so I lay a folded cloth across them. At last I began to idly speculate about the problems involved in explaining Seth to others; among these others being my boss at work, Harry Gottesman.

(I then saw very clearly in my upper center field of vision an open, full-lipped and sensuous pair of red and feminine lips, with a triangular kind of tongue moving between them. I saw only the mouth and tongue, and for some reason thought of a cardboard tongue. The mouth spoke the words “Oh now please, please bear with me,” or words to that effect. As usual this vision was over before I realized I had seen it, yet during the sighting I was for the first time unaware of my body lying on the bed.

(Immediately the mouth vanished, I was swept from head to toe by my familiar thrilling, the feeling of sound. The sensation was very strong and suffusing, almost one of ecstasy. I felt about to be swept up and away. I realized that I was smiling, and that beneath the blindfold my eyes were open. The sensation continued strongly through my body for perhaps a minute or two. I waited for further developments but none came, although the feeling lingers now at 10:25 PM.

(In this experiment sound, light and sensation were involved. I wonder whether the mouth was a more or less conscious creation to explain the vigorous feeling sweeping through me.)

(Thursday, May 14, 1964, 11:45 AM. While trying psychological time, Jane again experienced the feeling she has likened to ecstasy, and described so thoroughly on page 66. The extreme sensation, the thrilling, lasted for over half an hour. She felt very light, she said, and willing to go along with whatever might develop. Discussing her experience, we agreed that perhaps she might be more cautious in the future, as far as being too willing to go along with whatever might develop. We thought that a small step at a time was sufficient.)

(On February 17, 1964 our neighbor Miss Florence Callahan who lived in the front apartment on the same floor as Jane and I, was taken to the hospital suffering from arteriosclerosis. See Session 25, in Vol. 1. On March 9, 1964, Seth said that April 15 would be a day of crisis for Miss Callahan in the hospital. See the 33rd session, page 262. On April 15, Seth stated during the 44th session that Miss Callahan would undergo brain damage. See page 17, Vol. 2.

(Jane and I learned later that indeed on this day Miss Callahan had behaved so erratically at the hospital [throwing things, screaming, struggling, etc.] that her relatives were notified she must be moved, since the hospital could not furnish 24-hour care. On April 18 Miss Callahan was moved to a local rest home, the Town House.

(On Wednesday, May 13, Miss Callahan’s relatives asked Jane if we could move Miss Callahan’s blue divan into our apartment, and in its place let them take a hide-away bed we had in storage; this bed to be used for a nurse who was to live with Miss Callahan when she was brought home from the Town House. We agreed to the swap and it was made Thursday, May 14.

(In the meantime, Miss Callahan’s relatives moved her and her nurse into her apartment on Saturday afternoon, May 16. The move from the rest home was made quietly, and though we did not see Miss Callahan at the time, we learned she appeared to be much improved over her earlier condition.

(Perhaps if I had agreed enthusiastically to keep the blue divan, Jane would have done so. As it was, although I told Jane it was up to her as to whether we kept it or not, it was actually Jane who offered it to Leonard. After Monday’s session, the 54th, I did then realize that I had not been keen about keeping it in our apartment.)