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SESSION 42

(Jane did not mention her experience to me then; upon rousing herself she forgot it, she said, until tonight when she had a similar experience. This time, napping before the session, she awoke wondering about the time; she saw the veil of light again, but not the clock and could not determine the time.

(Just before the session tonight we discussed the article under Science in Time for April 10, 1964; it dealt with the discovery of the most distant galaxy to date, one traveling away from us at a speed of 76,000 miles per second.

(Jane was nervous as usual before the session. She began dictating in a voice only a bit stronger than normal, and in a very deliberate manner once again. Her eyes darkened, her pace was slow.)

I anticipate another peaceful session.

These experiences and others that you both will have cannot be willed. Use of the ego along that line will hold back such progress. There is a feeling with which Ruburt is all too familiar which is important here. Before one of our regular sessions as you know Ruburt often becomes nervous. I have mentioned that the sensation is something akin to the feeling of an inexperienced diver standing upon a high board. The best way is just to let go and dive.

(Break at 9:30. Jane was dissociated as usual. And as also seemed to be usual lately, we were both somewhat tired. The new schedule was still taking its toll in lost sleep; though we had felt good at the beginning of the session, already we were let down. In some way we do not yet understand, much energy is taken from us while Jane is dictating; I sometimes feel that I too am in a trance state when she is speaking. Tonight at times I had to fight to keep my eyes open while writing.

(During break I mentioned that the sessions were getting shorter both in length and in time. I felt somewhat unhappy about this. Jane resumed dictating at 9:34.)

The reason that direct inner experience is often cut off and rarely sustained is that the ego almost immediately clamps down to examine the phenomena; and, Joseph, the bulk of the sessions is somewhat shorter for two reasons. For one thing I am getting the data through to Ruburt in a clearer, more concise fashion, and thereby dispensing with many unnecessary phrases. Also, I do not have to backtrack as frequently. I have given you some shorter sessions, though not many, because of your own changed schedule, and because I work through your energies, your combined energies, in a way that I have yet to explain.

(Break at 10:05. Jane was dissociated as usual. By now we were both tired. Jane yawned and remarked that if she could be out until the end of the session she would be quite happy. This upset me, mostly because I felt the same way myself. I also felt the sessions were threatened, though I did not say so, but Jane instantly sensed my mood. When she began dictating again her pace was as slow and deliberate as before, her voice normal. Resume at 10:13.)

Ruburt during these sessions is also to some degree dependent upon your energy, Joseph, and more than normally sensitive to your moods. I have said that both of you are necessary. I can sense a lack of confidence on Ruburt’s part when he senses any disturbance as far as you are concerned. I mention this because it then becomes more difficult for me to get the material through.

If you are too tired to continue the session then by all means let me know. Do you have anything to say along these lines?

(I then explained that I had felt that she wasn’t too interested either, whereupon Jane explained that by her remark about passing out until the end of the session, she meant she would like to be dissociated until its end; while in this state, she said, she did not feel fatigue. Thus she meant she could do a better job in delivering the material. I had misinterpreted her.

These sessions represent quite an accomplishment on both of your parts, and you do use your inner senses to some important degree. Otherwise the material would not come through with any dependability. We have here what amounts to a gestalt of a kind. It is natural that your energies rise and ebb, and this is to be expected. To some degree I am able to reinforce your energies, and I do as you may have suspected.

We will also all improve so that you should actually find your energies refreshed at the end of a session, though we have not reached that level at this time. The mere fact that the sessions continue, and have continued despite ordinary fluctuations of daily life, is proof of the validity of the sessions.

And now my tootsies, I bid you a fond good evening. You will find, if I may say so, that the material in tonight’s session is of its usual high quality.

(End at 11:20. Jane was dissociated as usual. She said she too felt better now than when the session began. Jane was wondering rather idly whether a psychiatrist or a scientist might get more out of the material when Seth came through again. She resumed pacing and dictating at 11:25.)

The translations are not easy to achieve, but they are possible and must be made through the inner senses, though the translations or solutions may appear on an intuitional level. I wanted to add this to the evening’s sessions. I now will really leave you to at least a relative peace and quiet.

(End at 11:27. Jane was again dissociated briefly. Neither of us exhibited any hand phenomena during the session.)