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Ruburt’s experience last night was along these lines. For a brief moment he “saw” (in quotes) as clearly without opening his eyes as he would ordinarily see by using them. But in this instance the vision was much better, you must admit, than it is with ordinary eyesight, since the clock that Ruburt saw well enough to tell the time was not even in the same room.

These experiences and others that you both will have cannot be willed. Use of the ego along that line will hold back such progress. There is a feeling with which Ruburt is all too familiar which is important here. Before one of our regular sessions as you know Ruburt often becomes nervous. I have mentioned that the sensation is something akin to the feeling of an inexperienced diver standing upon a high board. The best way is just to let go and dive.

So in the instance of direct experience without the use of the external senses, the same sort of procedure is beneficial. Last night Ruburt was drowsy but not asleep. He desired to know the time because he had preparations to make before going out. Unknowingly he requested the desired information, that is the time, from his own subconscious, and free from impediments the subconscious delivered.

Tonight Ruburt also desired to know the time, but he was sleeping. The information was delivered to him tonight in exactly the same manner that it was delivered last night. However he was asleep at the time, was not aware except for a glimmering of what had happened; and nevertheless he awoke because of the information that he had received. The inner sense that aided him in this instance is one that we have not yet discussed.

I suggest you take your first break. Since Ruburt seems to have such limited use of his regular eyes we shall have to see what we can do with his inner sight.

The reason that direct inner experience is often cut off and rarely sustained is that the ego almost immediately clamps down to examine the phenomena; and, Joseph, the bulk of the sessions is somewhat shorter for two reasons. For one thing I am getting the data through to Ruburt in a clearer, more concise fashion, and thereby dispensing with many unnecessary phrases. Also, I do not have to backtrack as frequently. I have given you some shorter sessions, though not many, because of your own changed schedule, and because I work through your energies, your combined energies, in a way that I have yet to explain.

I did want to answer Ruburt’s question as to the expanding universe, though we will not go into all the details now. Your camouflage idea of time is no help, and until you realize that time as you think of it does not exist in any real terms, then you will not be able to understand the true nature of your universe.

Ruburt during these sessions is also to some degree dependent upon your energy, Joseph, and more than normally sensitive to your moods. I have said that both of you are necessary. I can sense a lack of confidence on Ruburt’s part when he senses any disturbance as far as you are concerned. I mention this because it then becomes more difficult for me to get the material through.

I wanted, then, to make another point about Ruburt’s experience last night in connection with the inner senses. Ruburt was quite capable as far as ability was concerned, to know what time it was without the addition of the vision of the clock. This was secondary. It seems that on your plane there is almost always the temptation to translate inner data in terms that the ego can understand and interpret.

If many of the inner senses behave as if your conception of time and space do not exist, then the obvious reason is of course that they do not. You are merely allowing yourself a momentary release from the limitations of camouflage ideas, and release of these ideas brings a corresponding release from the physical camouflage patterns themselves. There is a breaking through. Now this breaking through is a release of the inner self from the camouflage, and the resulting camouflage laws of any particular plane. The barriers to such experiences are mainly those set up by the ego. The sort of experience Ruburt had last night is one of the simplest along these lines.

More difficult to achieve is an experience in which the ego becomes more alert in self defense. The ego, for example, did not have to worry about Ruburt’s physical survival as he lay in bed and “saw” (in quotes) the clock in the other room. When the ego’s instinct for self-protection is aroused, then of course it rises up in arms. This is one of the reasons why the experience of levitation is so seldom achieved.