“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

These experiences and others that you both will have cannot be willed. Use of the ego along that line will hold back such progress. There is a feeling with which Ruburt is all too familiar which is important here. Before one of our regular sessions as you know Ruburt often becomes nervous. I have mentioned that the sensation is something akin to the feeling of an inexperienced diver standing upon a high board. The best way is just to let go and dive.

(Break at 9:30. Jane was dissociated as usual. And as also seemed to be usual lately, we were both somewhat tired. The new schedule was still taking its toll in lost sleep; though we had felt good at the beginning of the session, already we were let down. In some way we do not yet understand, much energy is taken from us while Jane is dictating; I sometimes feel that I too am in a trance state when she is speaking. Tonight at times I had to fight to keep my eyes open while writing.

(During break I mentioned that the sessions were getting shorter both in length and in time. I felt somewhat unhappy about this. Jane resumed dictating at 9:34.)

(Break at 10:05. Jane was dissociated as usual. By now we were both tired. Jane yawned and remarked that if she could be out until the end of the session she would be quite happy. This upset me, mostly because I felt the same way myself. I also felt the sessions were threatened, though I did not say so, but Jane instantly sensed my mood. When she began dictating again her pace was as slow and deliberate as before, her voice normal. Resume at 10:13.)

Ruburt during these sessions is also to some degree dependent upon your energy, Joseph, and more than normally sensitive to your moods. I have said that both of you are necessary. I can sense a lack of confidence on Ruburt’s part when he senses any disturbance as far as you are concerned. I mention this because it then becomes more difficult for me to get the material through.

These sessions represent quite an accomplishment on both of your parts, and you do use your inner senses to some important degree. Otherwise the material would not come through with any dependability. We have here what amounts to a gestalt of a kind. It is natural that your energies rise and ebb, and this is to be expected. To some degree I am able to reinforce your energies, and I do as you may have suspected.

I wish you both a most pleasant good evening. I would suggest that you both learn to listen and to watch in a detached fashion that will allow the inner senses to operate in a beneficial fashion.