“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(It was rather quiet in the studio, though I could hear Jane’s typewriter, but through the closed doors the sound was muffled and rather steady, and the rest of the house was quiet. I used the fractional technique, starting with my feet and working up to my head, then back down the body to my feet again. I kept my eyes closed from the start, but midway in the session felt that I could not have opened them, at least very easily [re Jane’s suggestions when she is putting me under].

(While it was progressing I began to feel very loose and relaxed, my head rolled, etc. For some odd reason I had a greater command of the muscles in my scalp. They felt as though they moved much more easily and to a greater degree than usual. I also told myself that at the count of three I could bring myself out of it any time I wanted to.

(When I did, I felt very relaxed indeed, almost rubbery. This feeling of ease persisted to a marked degree for a couple of hours. Working this afternoon was most pleasant; I forgot all about my back trouble. While I had myself in this state, I tried to give myself good, positive suggestions. Did not think to implant the idea of a key word, though, to facilitate trance the next time.)

(As the hour for the session came and went, Jane began to get “nibbles” from Seth. At the same time I felt worse. I had not been helping Jane and felt guilty about it, and angry at the relatives. Finally, when Jane was talking to me in the studio at about 10:45, I had such a severe attack of cramps in the back I could not stand.

You want to help but fear to move. If you had helped tonight, you would not have felt the need to turn your emotions inward against yourself in a self-destructive manner.