“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You place too great a burden upon yourself when you consider your ability something that must (underlined) be used. It flows through you naturally. Many spontaneous ideas for paintings and sketches you automatically reject because of several reasons. They do not fit in with your ideas of work (underlined), or with your idea of what you think you ought (underlined) to do, or because you are being too ponderous, and hence shove away many spontaneously playful ideas.

You naturally express your nature through your use of the channel of art. Your ability to draw upon that channel is endless. The certain-amount-of-ability idea is highly limiting. It forces upon you a sense of responsibility to use what you have, while instead it should mean simply being what you are, and being what you are (underlined) will automatically produce excellent paintings.

Your knowledge of form now can work for you automatically, serving to give structure to those ideas which will come to you freely and clearly. Your own (in quotes) “psychic abilities” now give you easy (underlined) access to inspiration. You must forget the idea as you have it, that your painting must serve to work out problems. In that framework you set problems.

Forget the idea of man’s work and what your paintings should (underlined) provide, and the idea of fame or success. Let yourself go with the joy of painting what you want to; but forgetting also, again, the idea that your paintings are working out problems, technical or not.

As you do, your behavior does change, and Ruburt there (underlined) is not projecting. You look at him on some (underlined) occasions—far less than in the past—with great impatience and disapproval, as far as his physical condition is concerned, so that he feels he would have greater dignity alone on his knees than trying to walk with you with that look in your eyes.

You are aware (underlined) of the good, but you do not concentrate upon it. You concentrate (underlined) upon the negative aspects.

[...] You begin to concentrate upon the negative (underlined three times) aspects of the news in the paper. [...]

[...] You did not realize however that you projected also (underlined), that if he harbored resentments in one area you harbored them quite as stubbornly in another.

[...] It has (underlined) a meaning. [...] The particular purpose of your present (underlined) personality can only be met in the present circumstances, in the way that is best overall. The challenges can be met at another time and in another life, this is true, but the particular people that you can help and the particular good that you can do, can never be done in precisely (underlined) the same way.

Now I speak to you honestly, and while you may find my words harsh they are spoken with both love and compassion, and (underlined) understanding of your innermost thoughts. Your salvation lies in giving up personal male love and marriage as (underlined) a condition for existence. [...]

This idea that you must (underlined) find a man that will love you and you alone, is a cover to hide this deeper refusal to accept life on life’s terms. [...]

[...] They were unable (underlined) to appreciate a love relationship because of this preoccupation, and you have been unwilling to appreciate the true miracle of your existence because of your preoccupation. [...]

[...] In certain terms the physical world can (underlined) be said to be opaquely perceived then, while other perceptions become clearer, but the normally conscious attention (underlined) is no longer so dominant, and even normal beliefs go into a momentary withdrawal.

[...] When Ruburt utilizes other focuses and turns his consciousness in other than directly-physical areas, when he turns several angles away, then to some extent (underlined) he frees himself to some degree from beliefs, but certainly from their effects. [...]

[...] In certain stages of consciousness, beliefs can be changed more easily, but there must be of course an insertion from the normal egotistical level in most (underlined) instances.

[...] (Pause.) If you are mentioned in an unfavorable light by people who are fanatics in one way or another, then it shows that you are (underlined) making inroads, and that our books are (underlined) being read enough by the followers of a particular doctrine to make the leaders of such doctrines uneasy.

[...] At the same time he is not that, of course, since he cannot completely carry out the woman’s role of housekeeping, and so forth—so in that (underlined) way, he also shows that he is a writer. [...]

[...] To some extent (underlined), and again, only as part of the picture, the symptoms have been a social device that to varying degrees, now, suited your purposes, both of you. [...]

[...] In it there is a kind of mental or psychic plasticity, where the evidence of the normal world loses its hard edges, becomes less real, and yet is touched by the psyche’s creativity so that it can (underlined) in a moment be literally transformed.

[...] Seven was the novel that showed him he could (underlined) write fiction.

[...] The charge built up, for him (underlined) about time and work, is masking of course his fear of not achieving as he wants to. [...]

I suggest now, for now (underlined), that you each do arise at 6:30, and take a good nap before dinner. [...]

In two days Ruburt has become more aware of his problems consciously, and made connections that had (underlined) to be made. [...]

[...] Aerofranz is not (underlined) particularly businesslike in his approach. He has not had (underlined) to fight for a book in strong terms, but his energy and belief helped it greatly at Prentice, and was transmitted to the salesmen. [...]

[...] There he needs your gentle (underlined) encouragement (underlined).

[...] There is a strong benefit here , in that he has been in on the material, relatively (underlined), from the beginning. [...]

[...] Dick however did not know where to go after Seagull, until he came onto our material, and it (underlined) will help him.

[...] That spontaneous order shows itself in time, but it is apart from time, in that its origins (underlined) are not physical. [...]

[...] Creativity is still the closest field of endeavor that can possibly teach you about the origin of the species, for your creativity mimics that higher creative spontaneity, out of which all (underlined) order emerges (again intently). [...]

Basically (underlined), any portion of the human body has the inherent capacity to reproduce itself—and further, to become a reproductive organ. [...]

[...] In a way the child is—in a way (underlined), the child is—the finalized version in your reality (long pause) of a vast number of sperm and eggs. [...]

[...] People will (underlined) to live, to act or not to act. To a large extent they will (underlined) the events of their lives — whether or not they are willing to admit this to themselves, and they will (underlined) to die.

They are not forgotten, but the people involved simply close their own eyes, so to speak, to those decisions, and pretend (underlined) that they do not exist, simply to make their lives appear smooth and to save face with themselves, when they know very well that the decisions really rest on very shaky ground indeed.

[...] The changes have already begun in his mind, and they will (underlined) be physically expressed.

The psychic abilities are (underlined) the creative abilities—natural extensions of what you think of as the creative abilities. [...] In a way (underlined), you were too contemplative (pause), even perhaps too intellectually inclined, perhaps even too solitary, to be an artist alone. [...]

[...] On the other hand, psychic abilities have generally (underlined) been held in such poor reputation for centuries (with gestures), so discouraged, that you might think it quite a wonder that they still show themselves.

[...] (Pause.)In a fashion (underlined), Ruburt thought of his abilities as fascinating but untrustworthy allies: give them an inch and they will take a yard. [...]

[...] In a way, they gave you both a second life, for in the old framework there was no satisfying (underlined) or creative way to go. [...]

[...] You did so, however, in the light of that psychological climate, so that while you went your own ways you also reacted to the social environment: you tried to show other people that you were indeed responsible—more, that you worked (underlined) not only as hard as others, but often harder (underlined). [...]

Years ago, Ruburt picked up that idea of work, applying it to creativity in his (underlined) own ways. You made it clear to others that while they be free, free on weekends or holidays, you yourselves were still involved with “work” (underlined)—all of this to show that you were responsible persons. [...]

[...] In your own art you worked relatively slowly, measured out your pleasure in a fashion, even thinking sometimes in the past that your talent required (underlined) periods of indecision and difficulty. [...]

[...] First of all, the artist in whatever medium loves the activity for itself, and everything else is basically (underlined) secondary. [...]

(Pause at 9:30 in an intent delivery.) The grids of perception that compose your world give you the world picture as you (underlined) experience it because your physical senses put you in a certain position within the entire grid. [...] The large classifications of mammals, fish, birds, men, reptiles, plants, and so forth, are [each] an integral part of that larger perceptive pattern—and that pattern (underlined) in those terms had to be complete even in the beginning of your time.

[...] Others at other levels are (underlined) available. You can (underlined) tune into cellular consciousness, for example.

[...] In your terms, then (underlined), all of life’s large classifications were present “at the beginning of the world.” [...]

In a manner of speaking (underlined), the physical universe is “transposed” upon another reality that must be its source. [...]

For some years, to varying extents, Ruburt and you also to a lesser degree became motivated by ideas of who you should (underlined) be, what you should (underlined) be doing, and what your responsibilities were. [...] In Ruburt’s case the idea of responsibility became far more pervasive, resulting in what I have referred to as being almost a superself image—an image composed of his ideas of the kind of person he should (underlined) be in his position. [...]

[...] The idea of responsibility, as it is understood (underlined), is at its heart other-directed. [...] Ruburt felt for years that he should (underlined) become a more public person, do workshops, television shows, radio tours or whatever—that he should (underlined) nearly perform miracles in the psychic arena, that he should have a large class, that he should hold as many sessions for others as possible. [...]

No conscious decisions were ever really clearly made, because Ruburt felt that ideally (underlined), if he were giving himself true freedom and being true to all his abilities, he would and should be performing in such a manner. [...]

[...] He did not want (underlined) particularly to do any of them, though he enjoyed most of them once he began. [...]

You end up with the casting-out of devils, which can be of great benefit, incidentally, if (underlined) the sufferer happens to believe (underlined) he is possessed by one.

The morning and evening suggestions that you initiated (underlined), and the longer list, have helped. [...]

[...] In one way both personalities were accidental, in that Ruburt did not consciously (underlined) form either. [...]

[...] You are aware (underlined) of the physical environment that you create. [...]

[...] The importance of some of these was that Ruburt would feel simply that you were taking an active intimate interest, and lending a positive (underlined) hand.

[...] And when he did he felt guilty because he knew that you did (underlined) love him.

[...] He is not looking for an endless adolescent love affair, but in his terms (underlined) the simple emotional creature love, support, that he felt you must, because of your nature, largely withhold.

To compensate he realized that you gave all you could, that you were his partner in work, in seriousness and in important endeavors (underlined), but he wanted touches, and because of his nature reassurances.

There he can (underlined) be very free. Abundance is a good word to use, for it signifies a free and easy access to all pleasurable things, including creativity, mobility, both mental and physical, and easiness in flow (underlined) of any kind.

Now because of your latent (underlined) interest in the medical profession, you have sold to hospitals in the past, commercially and you have sold paintings to dentists. [...] Accept abundance in whatever way it comes, and underline that entire sentence. [...]

[...] Now, imagine (underlined) how you will feel when your paintings sell, the joy that they will bring others, the joy that you will feel knowing they are wanted. [...]

[...] Do not then look anxiously (underlined) about for buyers, to check whether or not this is working.

You (me) (underlined) have a tendency to think in terms of obstacles. Ruburt allowed this to add to latent (underlined) characteristics of his own. [...]

Many then of the things that you want, quite normal things, have been always (underlined) projected into the future, which no matter how he works never comes. [...]

[...] But once set upon a course, you would not change it either, and Ruburt would have done anything to see you happy in that (underlined) regard.

He felt finally that at least if you worked full time for yourself that (underlined) complaint would be taken care of. [...]

[...] They serve to prevent strong (underlined) aggression or violence, both in animals and men. Coupled with a habit of consciously (underlined) repressing normal angry feelings, we have Ruburt’s loyalty to you. [...]

There was no normal (underlined) give and take in a family with siblings, where equals—children—could more or less safely express themselves between themselves.

[...] On one level he would not care, if only he felt you were really (underlined) painting what you wanted, and pleased with it; but you do not seem pleased.

In his own way your father was saying “Since you do not trust my creativity I will deny you its benefits, even if I deny myself its benefits”—this to your mother; and you picked up a taboo: you could make money on art as long as you felt it was not really (underlined) creative—that is, commercial. [...]

When he was spontaneous, it seemed, you did (underlined) disapprove. [...] It was because of his great love for you and his knowledge of your great love for him, that your disapproval, by contrast, was (underlined) so chilling.

[...] To some extent he had equated his recovery as almost impossible at times, since in those terms, now, and when (underlined) they operate, it puts him in the position of trying to be perfect. [...]

[...] He felt that unless he became physically perfect again (underlined) you would not love him again in that way he wanted.

He felt unable to freely (underlined) express his fears to you, feeling they would only upset you. [...]

[...] The energy to maintain it, almost (underlined) in direct proportion to your combined discontents, was composed of the displaced energy not put into your prime purposes. [...]

[...] Underline many times.

[...] Improvements in Ruburt’s condition were ignored (underlined) largely by both of you, and instead concentration was upon the symptoms that still remained.

The type (underlined) of commercial art you did as a young man was not the answer, but served many purposes. [...]