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The present situation has been bound to result in more concentration upon the problem than usual, but in this particular instance the overall results become constructive, because they result in the psychological motion of the released feelings of panic. The experiences he had, of better imagined walking, for example, are important indications of inner resolutions, and that the body is making progress. (Long pause.) The panic kept him from trusting his body, and as that dissipates his innate trust in his body and in his own capacities will improve, and his performance, of course. The suggestion I gave about his situation is important in that regard. (See session of April 24, 1981.)

That is enough for this evening. Generally speaking, however, both the physical discomfort and the panic have passed their intense periods. The idea of responsibility has hampered him. The panic-in-the-morning episodes will also begin to pass, but—they are also caused by the feeling of not being able to measure up, no matter what one does.

(See the attached notes of Jane’s, concerning her experiences of April 30 and May 2. Actually, much else has taken place also, but I didn’t keep daily records and feel somewhat lost in trying to reconstruct events. This morning, for example, Jane slept until noon, and after I got up at 6:30 she had a number of recurrences of her “panic attacks.” Last night she’d slept fairly well, although at one time she sat up and wrote some notes on the Speakers’ manuscripts. The night before, she’d come up with good material about how to conclude her third Seven novel. I should add that she stayed up all day yesterday, for the first time in many days. She did take a nap late in the afternoon at the same time I lay down.

(Jane began crying after I called her this noon, as she felt the waves of panic sweep through her, and she continued to cry for some little while. She said the feelings didn’t seem to be related to any specific events that she could remember. They were very unpleasant—frightening—and we thought that they were supposed to be therapeutic in nature, in line with Seth’s recent material. Had she succeeded in repressing them, as she had done in the past, more trouble would have presumably erupted at a later time.

[...] She said she’d felt ashamed of the panic at times, and agreed with me that if the shame was used to possibly suppress the panic, it — the panic — would last longer.

(I’ll have to admit I was surprised when my wife said she felt shame at the panic. [...]

(At 2:30 Jane began having panic attacks, just as she’s been doing lately. [...]

(Her panic didn’t last nearly as long as it had yesterday, and I hoped her continued experience of it would lead to its dissipation. [...]

Tell Ruburt to tell himself that he can slowly but definitely make small adjustments in his thinking, feeling, belief — that even despite his panic he can feel those changes move around in his psyche.

[...] You were in a panic, thinking of the importance of your hand to your work. [...]

[...] The fear that the artistic self was being threatened led to a certain panic that impeded the flow of information you were trying to suggest to the unconscious.

You did not get your suggestions through adequately because in this important area you misjudged its motives, and this caused a certain panic on your part, as mentioned.

He is still gathering up his resources, and became quite panic-stricken at the situation in general. He is still working toward recovery, though the fear and panic did slow down that recovery considerably — and by recovery I mean simply the return to conditions just before this recent hang-up.

(3:27.) The session itself should reassure him enough to allow some of the panic to subside, so that he can begin to sense at least some return of composure. [...]

What he needs immediately at this point—which you have already been providing—are “bandages” of honest affection—for these help allay some of the original childhood panic, which rises in different form. [...] Some of the old panic is also threatened, of course, and hence shows itself in altered form at different times. [...]

[...] At about 7 PM, we were eating supper and watching Buck Rogers on TV, when Jane had another panic attack. [...]

[...] Yet she herself first came up with the insight tonight that the panic was expressing itself through her disorientations and/or hallucinations. [...]

(8:35.) These feelings of panic beautifully illustrate several issues, and Ruburt will be able to handle them all right. [...]

(“With this I feel I’m at the bottom of the panic—that this material represents the last involved elements. I feel myself letting go, yet still sense that escaping panic, so that I’m afraid to step on my feet, to turn and get on bed; like it’s the last of the panic.” [...]

His body is indeed releasing tensions, adjusting at the most profound levels of motion, and the process involves, as stated, the release of old panics. Additional vigor can be expected as the energy that had been used by the panic is now made practically available to the body. [...]

The panic reaction you sometimes imagine helps remind you of the panic in which many people spend whole portions of their lifetimes. [...]

[...] I didn’t think it was a life-or-death crisis, but the result of our conversations lately, and the sessions, the panic attacks, and so forth. [...]

(She had periodic bouts of panic as she ate, and we talked these out to some extent. [...]

[...] She also felt instances of the panic, though, having to do with her mother and family events, and we talked those out.

[...] This causes some (panic?); there is a feeling that he is back in their control, and that the book in this respect has lain him vulnerable.

[...] The sore hip episodes represented the peak of inner panic, and the crises point of the whole affair. [...]

[...] When he tries to open up in a letter he panics. [...]

[...] Some of that material will bring the reasons for his panic into clearer light, however, and so then will make even more sense than it might have a month ago. [...]

[...] The small panics themselves, for example, are meant to lead to psychological questioning and so forth in a give-and-take mental and therapeutic exchange of activity—an activity bound to release and activate the creative abilities also. [...]

(Appearances can be deceiving, though: After lunch Jane told me that her feelings of panic had returned [see the session for November 7, for instance]. [...]

(“My most hopeful feeling is that when you give it all up the panic comes up again, and then you’re making progress. [...]

[...] Daily use of those particular back exercises, with their mental discipline, will further aid in his development, until he will find indeed that he can not only relax at will, but even when he does not have time to will relaxation, that is, relaxation will be the built-in conditioned reflex that panic used to be.

I mention this particularly because of his panic reactions last week at the gallery. [...]

[...] The brooding, resentful inner mulling over of gallery problems is a tip-off that the panic bomb has been set off. [...]

In earlier years such a situation was faced by Ruburt in a blind panic run from one end of the continent to another. [...]

(After supper Jane offered to have a session for me because during the day I’d had a number of recurrences of the panic feelings in my chest. [...]

(However, the feelings of unease and/or panic returned after supper, and Jane offered the session. [...]

Now: you panic yourself. [...]

[...] And as I waken, very sore, feelings of panic (or nearly). [...]

[...] The panic he feels in some particular kind of relaxation episodes does indeed involve the psychological feelings that were buried within that releasing tension. [...]

(9:33.) Initially, as the tension releases it releases along with it the buried panic about which it was formed (long pause). [...]

I hope that what I said involving relaxation and panic is understood, and that you help Ruburt understand himself in those circumstances. [...]

[...] The self-destructive behavior was much more advanced now, though, and I could only hope and trust that my dear wife’s feelings of panic were an attempt on her personality’s part to at least discharge some of the dangerous emotional charge that must have accumulated over the years, while being repressed. [...] If this were the case, the feelings of panic were a good sign, and could be quite helpful. [...]

[...] Her feelings of panic continued as I got supper ready, but she ate pretty well. [...]

[...] There will be specific references that come to Ruburt, as today’s emotional connection did, which will again not only lessen what panic remains, but show that the panic itself has a more or less reasonable basis—not in some formless fear but in specific events. [...]

[...] Ruburt’s feelings of panic can then be understood as originating in response to a highly complicated, intense early life, and in concrete situations. [...]

[...] Very good, I said, but she couldn’t actually pin down the source or subject matter for her panic today. [...]

[...] Again, the session should automatically help calm his mind and let the panic dissipate.

[...] It appeared to be a panic reaction of some kind, and had happened before.

[...] There is here also what I may call a sort of air panic, an insatiable taking in of air that the nervous puffing of a cigarette sometimes satisfies, even a basis in claustrophobia where the personality feels it is not getting enough air or is closed in.

The panic itself will not be as severe as Ruburt faces it and realizes the connection with a gulping of air. [...]

[...] Keep the pack you already have for periods of panic. [...]