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Ruburt needs you to do his best work, and the support that you give him. [...] In the dream he follows you where he wants to go, but he needs your confidence to help lead him.

[...] The method of getting upstairs will no longer concern him, simply the ascent, and that the two of you together are conquering the physical situation.

[...] You leave him in the woods, and then begin the ascent.

On another level the man represents various distractions of a negative kind; a refusal to be held back by any more commerce with him.

[...] If you see him physically and think you are awake, then speak to him mentally. [...]

You must impress upon yourself before sleep, your desire to meet him consciously. [...] Do not attempt to approach him simply because there will be unstable elements and a fine balance to be maintained, his visual appearance being dependent upon many conditions. [...]

[...] (Long pause, eyes closed.) If you meet him in your own astral body you will have more freedom of expression and communication, for you can speak normally, if you follow me. It would be a good idea therefore to have a general mental outline of any particular questions you would like to ask him.

You wanted to help him through the birth and into the next existence. [...] His mother and Ella (his sister) are with him. [...]

It is Ruburt’s nature you see to accept heartily or to disagree heartily, to plunge headlong into, or to run from, and the psychic developments made it impossible for him to do either; or rather his reactions made wholehearted acceptance or rejection impossible. This put him in a nether land, to him highly unacceptable.

He is highly skeptical of AA, when he tries to consider him as an individual person, but is perfectly content to think of him as a force. [...] For this led him to skepticism. [...]

[...] Your own illness did literally terrify him, and he feared that if he faced his true doubts concerning my existence, that he would hurt you.

[...] He let them run away with him, and is doubly afraid now. [...]

[...] No one will say that he is the most dominant, or accuse him of this if he so obviously needs your assistance, walks behind you. This also means that you show your devotion more obviously, gallantly offering him assistance, thus always showing the world that what he is doing has your blessing.

[...] It shocked, frightened him, and made him think that perhaps his success could separate you. [...]

He felt that you were his accuser, and punished him by becoming ill. [...] At this point he felt they were directed against him. [...]

A side point here, but with some reference: his mother always told him that he would destroy those he loved, and he feared that any success of his might show you up if you had not achieved your own. [...]

[...] Ruburt desperately wanted you to cherish him as a woman, to play and flirt with him. [...]

[...] You tell him to use suggestion, which is a mental tool, and evade the physical contact which to him is proof of the physical divorce, and a reassertion of the mental being valued and the physical denied.

[...] It has become to him a very necessary and important meeting ground between the two of you. [...] It loses then that secrecy that has always been important to him.

It hurt him of course to perform the up and down motions particularly, and he interpreted this to mean that you wanted him to torture and humiliate his body further by forcing it to feel the pain, and that in doing so he was punishing it further. [...]

Remind him, and I know I am repeating myself, that concenration must not be upon the problem—which, remind him, has lessened. [...]

He is more embarrassed now by his walking because of a healthy impatience that is understandable, but this must be kept under control so that it does not hamper him. When you are with him others do not offer to help—they see that he is taken care of. [...]

When he did not then he questioned the message that came through him, and then could not use it properly. [...]

[...] For now let him continue as he has, but daily, walking to the corner when he feels the impetus.

Now if you will touch him affectionately, or speak in such a manner, when the two of you first awaken, this gentle reminder of our love and affection will be of great help. Particularly on awakening, and you have helped him immensely through such gestures and affirmations. It is safe for him to relax. [...]

[...] Health as a means to excellent performance in fields that are important to him; health as a means to use those abilities with which he has been honored; health as a means to bring joy to himself and hence to others; health as a source of strength that is available always to help him use those abilities and to fulfill his destiny here, now...

Now this information will help in the most important way—to help him get over those blocks still operating. Health as a means of allowing creative energy to flow through him.

He should put into the bedroom objects that have particular value for him. [...] But the bedroom is devoid of the favorite objects he keeps about him in this room. [...]

You were therefore expected by him to keep the sessions from getting out of hand, to help in quotes “police” his spontaneous self here, as you did in the sexual area and in your personal relationship. To him this was logical, if subconscious, expectation.

[...] When you encouraged the sessions in the beginning so strongly, he was taken back for to him you were not fulfilling the implied role. When you urged him onward then he felt that he might be on dangerous ground, for you had been counted upon in the personal area to stop spontaneity, emotionally and sexually.

[...] It frightened him. [...] Before you had handled the spontaneity for him. [...]

[...] You were encouraging him to even further spontaneity on the one hand, to intuitional freedom, and yet to his point of view requiring him to exert all kinds of discipline, which he felt was your role—to follow the intuitions so far, know when to stop at the proper target, and it was here that he first deeply felt you as a taskmaster.

[...] You, Joseph, do not realize emotionally how you can direct your energy to help him overcome what doubts he still has left. Intellectually you appreciate this, but emotionally you can help him, by bolstering him as he does others.

[...] You can help by purposefully directing energy to him to get him over the hump. [...]

He tried to regulate his own health through his beliefs, while a part of him still wondered if he was wrong. [...]

[...] So you must water him with your beliefs in health, and so he must water himself—and there is no impediment. [...]

[...] You had him crucify his only son. Do not be afraid or pity him. You blame him and yell at him and then you wonder why he does not treat you right. [...]

[...] You hold on to him. [...] You can blame him for all your misfortunes. [...]

Four hours should be a minimum; work this out with him. You will help him see more clearly. [...]

[...] In this life Ruburt saw those same characteristics in Father Ryan, where repression was used to keep him in the church. [...]

Your own behavior with him has been excellent, and highly reinforcing. [...]

You can help by encouraging him to remember that his body does have the capacity to do better now. [...]

These are beliefs of Ruburt’s. He felt in the past that you did not consistently keep with him in any program of improvement, except for badminton. Because you were willing to go along now he believes in your complete sincerity at all levels, and in your willingness to help him.

[...] Tell him if possible to forget the symptoms as much as he can, and concentrate instead upon his work and our program. Encourage him to do so.

[...] The need for money literally strangles him. [...] For there is an isolated characteristic in him, and a completely undeveloped talent, though not in painting.

[...] On the other hand you have the hilarious suspicion, when you are envious of others, that if he wanted more you would get more for him. You could blame him, and therefore have your cake and eat it too; so that the penis difficulty is also aimed in his direction, rather literally.

[...] But ideas will come to him in better fashion if he allots part of the day to spontaneous thinking. He sops ideas up in a spontaneous manner, and when it seems that he plays, even to him, he is working.

[...] For when you are envious you become angry at yourself, but also angry at him, for you cannot help thinking that if he worked harder, if he did something, of what you are not certain, then he would make more money, and you could still have what envy demands. [...]

He tends them so that they will guard him. They protect him from inner impulses. [...] He thrives on praise; so, true to form, the giant killer Ruburt insults him to his face.

[...] It would do you, Joseph, no harm to allow him in your house, where you could size him up for yourself. [...]

[...] If he had set out, and he didn’t, to plan a process that would enable him to use his abilities to the fullest in his writing and other fields in which he is interested, and yet to discipline himself so that he did not scatter his abilities, if he had set out on a plan toward maturity, and to set definite controls upon his sometimes too fast, out-of-proportion responses, he could not have found a better path than the one which he is now following.

[...] His mother, representing authority to him as a child, was frightening, threatening, sometimes cruel, and capricious. [...]

[...] (Long pause.) The affair with the school psychologist, and the class here, infuriated him, and he hid his reaction. The school was the college again, you see, and the academic community that had already rejected him as a student in the past. [...]

[...] Yet all of his religious background gave him an immersion in a strong organized religion. [...] All that remains is for him to realize that he is indeed now on the right track. [...]

He also remembered that they had turned him down when he looked for work. [...]

That affair should not bother him, nor did the Methodist group. [...]

[...] Jane continued, “but at the same time I enjoyed talking to him. [...] Walter didn’t stay too long, as noted, because I’d asked him not to. [...]

(Pause at 10:35.) He also feels he should (underlined) be able to display at least enough healing ability to help those in dire straits (pause), and he expects himself to display such a deep understanding and compassion for the world and its people that any divergence from such an attitude seems to make him appear more inferior by contrast. In that regard, tell him that my own fine tempered consideration of men’s foibles is somewhat easier to come by, since I do not deal with them daily. [...]

[...] An unexpected visitor arrived at about 8 PM—Walter from Connecticut—and Jane talked to him for at least half an hour. [...]

[...] I went back to working on taxes while Jane talked to him, and at the same time found myself wondering whether his unexpected visit might symbolize one of the very facets of Jane’s dilemma about privacy versus the public life—at least as I understand it: Her vulnerability and availability to anyone who chooses to come here. [...]

In the past, it had been at least acceptable to him, because he felt it a temporary means. His own overexpectations, or rather unrealistic expectations concerning his book, and the mistakes he felt were connected with it, sensitized him, until he felt that outside money would be a permanent part of his life.

He was bothered particularly, you see, because his own mother’s position makes him terrified of being financially dependent, yet the way he chose to make, money at this particular point was precisely the wrong way for him at this time.

There would have been no overwhelming conflict for him, hence no such physical symptoms as he has encountered, if he was content, you see, basically to let you carry the financial ball—in other words, if he were truly a dependent personality.

The nursery school was at the time the only move he felt really open to him. [...]

[...] In a fashion they served as regulators that he felt at one time allowed him to live on an even course, tempering spontaneity or psychic exploration lest it progress too quickly for him to follow, yet also protecting him from other distractions so that he could continue his explorations. [...]

Since Ruburt’s work involved him most directly in an examination of the self and in the unknown reaches of the psyche, then his experiences led him into a conflict with the idea of the Sinful Self. [...]

In personal terms, he feared that his father abandoned him for that reason, that his mother disliked him for that reason, for each person will interpret the belief in his or her own life according to circumstances. [...]

His mother told him he ruined everyone he touched. Those experiences were relatively unfortunate enough, but they were a part of the early life of someone who later finds themselves embarked upon in the study of the very nature of the self, so that they led him to believe that strong cautionary methods must be used. [...]

The feeling-tone, somewhat generated in childhood as I told you, was momentarily changed for the better when your relationship with him began. The feeling-tone however was one of the issues that led him to seek so for answers, and also made it very difficult for him to accept them.

He felt then that the tables had been turned on him again, after a time of freedom. Learning to handle these problems took him time, and again the problems themselves helped generate enough activity within his psychic centers to open up new channels.

[...] His childhood situation filled him with terror, yet there was the impetus of growing up to set him free. [...]

[...] Your own position as partially in league with those enemies, to his way of thinking, confused him further. His loyalty to you would make him by turns deny any backed-up feelings toward your parents, and then he would be forced to recognize them, and in doing so he would become angry at you for having parents.

[...] For Frank was not complacent, but feared that age would make him so—hence a conflict. Its very emotional vividness tells him he is not old and complacent, and its financial elements certainly make clear to him that he is not seeping in elderly security. [...]

[...] He is too warm, in this particular context, now—he wants to be liked and approved of, so he lets others take advantage of him—and when he knows this it makes him angry. [...]

[...] Tam is due next Thursday, bringing the copyedited Seven with him.... [...]

[...] One part of him loathes the idea of security. [...]