“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

[...] They became a symbol to him. You would not accept him as he was unless he was perfect. You would not accept him with the symptoms as an imperfect being, and love him anyway. He felt that unless he became physically perfect again (underlined) you would not love him again in that way he wanted.

If you, who loved him so deeply, distrusted him, then you see he must seriously consider that he must indeed watch himself carefully.

[...] He will be afraid for a while that you will turn away from him again. It has never been what you said, so much as your unexpressed communications that bothered him. [...]

What was not said is this: he felt that no one with whom he had been intimately involved believed in him as a person, or trusted his intrinsic value, except for yourself. [...]

[...] Ruburt’s various self-images have just about merged into one good one, and I want him to see this as effective. I have already given him some mental images that will help him, and you gave him some in an earlier discussion this evening.

Now certain changes have occurred within him. [...] Somewhat earlier his energies were so depleted that it would have been more difficult for him to do this in a rather sweeping manner, and this is what I suggest.

[...] Have him read this and tell him I said to put it in practice. [...]

(Reverend Crosson took some copies of sessions with him. [...]

Each individual has within him guidelines meant to lead him in the ways best for him. [...]

[...] Seven saved him from another Dreams (book) and also provided him with a contract.

My books will provide a different kind of accelerated creativity that can be achieved in no other way, and that will leave him freedom to pursue another kind of creativity that can come only from him, and not from me. [...]

He well knew at times that Adventures was in part a ruse to content him, and assure him of a contract while I began my book, but he is afraid of taking the plunge on his own now. [...]

We simply want to remind him again of translating the idea of motion into physical motion. [...] Tell him indeed that annoyance with his own symptoms could now prevent him from helping others as well as he might, because the energy devoted to maintaining the symptoms is not being used for such constructive purposes.

[...] Underline the following sentence: It is safe for him to let go completely now. [...] I do want him to initiate some fast, quick physical motion, you see, so that the muscular memory is imprinted in this direction.

[...] Tell him that he does not need the symptoms as a set of checks and balances. [...]

[...] Remind him, for the 100th time, that he can trust his inner self implicitly, and does not need to set up guards against its spontaneity, for spontaneity is his life, and the source of his creativity; and underline that sentence.

[...] Looking for houses, in a strange way, made him feel good, for he realizes that you could afford one. His request that you surprise him with buying him clothes is an unconscious attempt to get you to express some financial exuberance, or trust.

[...] It is a teaching mechanism—helping him with it is good, for it shows him that you think it is all right for him to relax and let go. [...]

[...] He feels guilty in your eyes if students owe him, because this does not seem practical. [...]

Even the nuns to whom he read poetry distrusted his fervency, and took him to task. [...] The spontaneous elements of his nature, as you know, frightened him, since others gave him dire warnings as to possible consequences.

He looks to you to look out for him in psychic matters. He allows his spontaneity freedom in sessions because he knows that you will carry on for him those usual sensory characteristics that he temporarily dispenses with.

[...] The spontaneity has its own strength that will sustain him if he lets it. Your early (underlined) concern over spontaneous sessions frightened him.

It was, then, the burst of spontaneity caused by the letter that also freed him for the next natural development in our sessions. You can do much by using very simple words to reassure him. [...]

At the same time he was feeling that he would not be a great writer either, you were telling him he was using only about a tenth of his abilities, and so in both areas he was not living up to his expectations or yours, to his way of seeing. There are other old tie-ins here, in that he was always considered very good or very bad, in that people always liked him instantly or disliked him instantly. You could not ignore him. [...]

[...] Encourage him therefore to follow the session, and assure him that you believe he can follow it. Do not tell him ahead of time that he will not succeed. [...]

[...] He has made an attempt however to follow the suggestions, and this has given him some pointers about his subjective state of mind. [...] But the entire session is important, and each of the suggestions is geared for him.

I am afraid I am holding him to the line with that particular session If he wants my help, therefore, he can no longer avoid following my advice—and tell him that I know he has been, but he must do so more completely, with that session.

You identified with your father because he seemed free, in that she did not direct actively these strong affections toward him. To be like him then represented safety, for she did not like failures.

[...] The passive qualities in him would have been far more predominant, overly so, but for the adversity he faced. His mother’s colorful, emphatic and mystical characteristics gave him incentive, and generated mental and psychic activity. [...]

These hidden feelings however made him susceptible to your own fears. [...] The above paragraphs should help him. [...]

[...] He thought at that time that you were simply jealous of him. Your reaction to the ESP book quite literally terrified him. [...]

[...] He threw open the windows, something usually denied him. This also has a therapeutic symbolism for him in connection with his grandfather, that is the feeling that cleansing nature rids the air of impurities. [...] There are other reasons for the housecleaning suggestions also, involving individualistic symbols that have strong value for him.

[...] As he goes to sleep this evening, have him try imagining a scene in springtime, with him walking briskly or running. [...]

[...] He should think of other things, even he counts trees and looks about him. Activity is good for him now, you see. [...]

[...] Intense concentration to other areas, you see, will take him out of the habitual patterns.

[...] The word tempt is important, for it implies on you part a willingness to have him taste and share with you both through food and sexual enjoyment. Telling him to eat without understanding your own emotional attitude is useless, for he picks up and exaggerates the Puritan-like feelings toward food. Your preparing food for him now and then as a counterpoint can help.

[...] Your combined emotional feelings toward food have been exaggerated by him. He thinks you disapprove for example of the very foods you tell him to eat, the sugars and starches. You condemn them except when mentioning them to him.

[...] You helped him because he was aware of your love and concern. [...]

[...] But you did not encourage him to express the feelings. [...]

[...] It seemed to him that if he spontaneously felt happy about a book that you would remind him of less favorable aspects. On the other hand he was convinced of your deep loyalty and love, and knew that you did want him to succeed and use his abilities.

[...] Some of this did have to do with old ideas that you were angry at him for any success if you had not achieved your own—and more, that the success might take you on tours and further away from your own work, which would make you angrier at him.

[...] He always believed, now, that when you spoke to him in the past about walking faster than you, or not waiting for you to open doors, that you were saying to him “You are going too fast for me, and putting me in a poor social light.”

For some time he did not feel that you wanted him to get better, but only to keep the symptoms within bounds. [...] On one level he felt you were quite willing to have him do this, again, as long as he did not go too far.

[...] (Pause.) Give him physical activity then. [...] (Our cat Willy jumped up into Jane’s lap.) Psycho-Cybernetics was good for him, for it stopped at least some of his conscious brooding. He must rediscover however his spontaneous self for these distorted and adopted and superficial ideas—underline superficial—of religious rules inhibited him.

[...] It is only when he uses it falsely as a shield to hide behind that he is bothered, and an objective reading of the Seth material would show him that there is nothing in it of which he need be emotionally or intellectually ashamed. [...] But the picture of a white-robed spirit, with those connotations, is not one I have given him.

He was outraged by A A, because he persisted in considering him as a “spirit”, in quotes, with all the connotations the word arouses in him. [...]

Had I told him, had I been able to, he would have recreated the problem in other terms, and worked it out in other ways. I did tell him, strongly, to finish the book, because until it was finished he did not even perceive the problem. [...]

His necessary job was to combine the two, for in him the intuitions and intellect are both strong. [...] Old fears would make him gyrate, panic-stricken, from one method of operation to the other.

His abilities, to be used fully, would inevitably have led him to such a crisis point, or better to such a challenge. Any work of art of his, not an apprentice work, would have led him to the same point. [...]

[...] The World as Idea Construction came to him, beside its extrasensory origin, subconsciously, with an exploding effect to save him, because he had so put the lid upon his creative activities after Rebellers, that he had effectively blocked the intuitive self.

You therefore would protect him from the results of his own spontaneity, carried too far, for he never thought in terms of a spontaneity tempered by self-discipline. In Florida he saw his father as the epitome of unreason and uncontrolled spontaneity, which had actually become a hodgepodge of unrelated emotional acts, and he felt you then deserting him symbolically.

Your idea of helping him has been to remind him of the hopelessness of his condition, to impress upon him his dependence and dire straits. Now: If this is all you could do from the outside, then how difficult do you think it is for him to encourage himself from the inside?

(12:30 AM.) Since you are talking to Ruburt from your outside, and telling him what to do, when you are not personally saddled in the same way that he is, then how often have you ever reassured him that he could indeed walk properly, get up easily, or joyfully tried to reinforce his confidence?

[...] Only lately has he realized that he has no respect for any of the authorities, as they call him or write him, or approach him. As with today’s psychologist, he sees that in many ways they know far less than he, and are looking to him for help and direction. These are the people, he suddenly sees, that so frightened him.

[...] People still notice him. They notice him even more now because of the eccentricity of walk. [...] You do not like to be out with him, on a certain level now, because he is so noticeable, so obvious. [...]

Now he has felt that if the “authority,” the people, do not like what he says, then they will not buy his books, and deny him that “welfare.” [...] Instead of the people giving him handouts as a child, where he had to be careful of what he did and said, he saw them as contributing to his welfare through buying his books, and if he went too far and offended them, they would stop.

[...] Therefore those opinions no longer have the power to frighten him. [...]

Your idea of the second house frightened him, implying isolation. When that time comes there will be different implications, of secrecy, which is mysterious to him, and therefore exciting. [...]

There is an old suggestion I gave him once: My body can perform better now. Have him use it daily.

[...] This session will rid him of some debris, hanging over. I would like to give a few sessions for him to follow. [...]

The material Ruburt is getting from the library will help him with his health, for it will automatically put him in touch with a strand of consciousness devoted to such issues. [...]

[...] Do not automatically comb his hair for him in the back, in the mornings. Have him try to do it himself. [...]

Encourage him to go into the grocery store with you. Do not think you are helping him when you take it for granted he does not want to. [...]

Do you want to help him?

[...] You were out-of-body last night, however, in here with him, and retain no memory. [...]

[...] It does him no good to let him avoid them, and it may do him severe harm.

[...] Here the senses themselves can help revive him. (Long pause.) He seems now to be choosing between identities, but there is one waiting for him, and it is a probable ego that he did not adopt as a child.

Someone who sees him, a male, is not doing him good at this time. [...]

This man will not be a stranger, yet he will not be the old Bernard, and Sarah can only help him by letting him know that she is there, and waiting. [...]

He may, on the other hand, tell himself that I am there, watching out for him, and I shall be glad to do so as I have on many an occasion. Often I could not get through to him, but now I will tell him that I will be present.

[...] An overproduction of adrenaline that kept him stirred up, but also an overproduction of certain chemicals that physically slowed him down.

[...] When he feels desolate, therefore, the desolation you see is almost complete to him.

[...] Compromise is very difficult for him. [...]

(10:48.) Now: briefly for our friend: tell him I said happy birthday.

Now: particularly, tell him not to become impatient, to proceed as he is, trusting his inclinations: and most of all trusting the validity on and the grace of his being.

As mentioned, the (45th) birthday was important for what it meant to him, and there is a connection with you at that age—except that he has more knowledge now than you had then. [...]

[...] there will be “a birth” of seemingly new concepts, simply because his old mental barriers kept him from making certain important connections, and an increasing system of communication between waking and dreaming states.