“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(At 9:09 Jane told me that for the first time in a long time she felt like “the other personality,” meaning Seth’s entity. She looked up, then said she felt the subjective pyramid above her head. [...]

[...] Jane said she had the usual pyramid feeling, described in detail in earlier sessions, and that as usual when break came she felt herself coming down through it.

[...] This time her eyes opened quickly; looking up, she felt in the air above her head; so real was the pyramid sensation, she said, that she sought to physically touch it. [...]

(Jane said the pyramid felt like glass above her. [...]

Instead you see, you felt with some considerable exceptions that in this particular area spontaneity could be safely followed. [...] When you urged him onward then he felt that he might be on dangerous ground, for you had been counted upon in the personal area to stop spontaneity, emotionally and sexually.

[...] You were encouraging him to even further spontaneity on the one hand, to intuitional freedom, and yet to his point of view requiring him to exert all kinds of discipline, which he felt was your role—to follow the intuitions so far, know when to stop at the proper target, and it was here that he first deeply felt you as a taskmaster.

[...] This is in keeping you see with the fact that you felt more threatened than Ruburt at those boundary-near-contact points. [...]

[...] On the other hand of course Ruburt also expected you to come up with and initiate the noncontact behavior when he felt that your relationship was getting too close for comfort, that his physical love for you might lead him some time to neglect consciously or unconsciously proper contraceptive behavior.

(Jane felt quite restless and energetic before the session, and her symptoms had subsided to a minimum after a poor night and morning. [...]

[...] He felt Wollheim’s enthusiasm.

[...] He felt extreme resentment at Fell generally. [...]

He projected his resentment into the future, and against all other publishers for awhile, anticipating the same sort of response as he felt the ESP book had received. [...]

[...] In a way you felt free enough, now, to bring those of your own into the open again. Ruburt has felt soreness, and then felt it drain away, almost as a physical proof of inner soreness disappearing. [...]

[...] Beside that, Ruburt was able to help you to some degree—while before you felt that he could not because of his concentration upon his own problems.

[...] Then, discovering that he was, after all, fallible, I felt betrayed; and worse I felt for some periods that he rejected me. [...] But I no longer felt as I did as a child, that the universe was well-intended or cared for me particularly; and looking about the world saw personal threats. [...]

He felt that the burden rested upon him, which of course was hardly the case. He also felt that Venice needed the proof of that woman’s complete recovery, and felt that perhaps his own doubts or fears prevented delivery of the particular information that might make the woman decide to live.

[...] Even though Jane told me she felt Seth around at 9 PM. [...] Jane said that when I brought up the question again tonight she felt the shuddering return, although it was located farther down her torso, in the stomach area, this time. [...]

[...] He also felt accused by you, believing that if he was using his abilities really fully, as you wanted him to, then there would have been a way provided so the woman would not die.

[...] He felt responsible for his own mother’s suicide attempts, to some degree, and this added to the situation.

[...] Yet it was now apparent that Jane felt a sense of blame, even shame; at the start of the deeper trance state she told me she felt I was mad at her all the time because I had worked full time at Artistic, etc; I tried to counter this by pointing out to her the benefits we had both obtained from this.

(As stated, this worked well, and as I counted Jane felt herself rising or lifting toward waking consciousness; the effect here was much more pronounced than when I had suggested she enter a deeper state, as described earlier. After the session Jane said she felt she had been in at least a good light trance state, and possibly a little deeper. [...]

[...] I felt I had read enough about the subject to know intuitively how to proceed once the time arrived. [...]

(After the first half hour I felt we had progressed enough to try various things. [...]

(She now told me that just before tonight’s session she felt a cone effect up over her head. This represented energy; Jane felt that it stopped with her, that she soaked up energy from it and the words then came out. She said she had also felt the cone on Monday; and through the terrific energy it contained the words poured out of her.

[...] She felt she knew the reasons for the improvement—her new commitment, sense of direction, etc., all parts of her “inside and outside,” she said. The energy pouring through her last session seemed to clear out her physical system; she felt a “mysterious muscular release.”

(Jane said that before break she had felt the delivery was exceedingly slow. But after break she felt it was exceedingly fast, like a “wink, or a split second.” [...]

(Because Monday’s session was so unusual, Jane felt a little hesitant about holding a session tonight. [...]

[...] She said that when she was alone in hydro this morning she felt her right foot [of the broken leg] lift up spontaneously at the toes. [...] At various times she’s also felt motion even with her head and shoulders. [...]

(I’d felt sad, staring down at the striped brown, black and white body, and remembered Seth’s material about how both parties in any death share the experience. The cats obviously felt no remorse at all—nor should they. [...]

[...] “I felt that he could really blast off with that voice. [...]

Now because neither of you wanted children, his books were considered part of his wifely duty; substitutes, he felt, that were better than the originals. He felt, then, that he could produce far better books than he could children. [...]

Ruburt felt it was wrong to do anything but write. He felt this also in his relationship with you—that he could serve you best by writing and cutting out all other activities. [...]

[...] When he did so he not only produced excellent work on Aspects, but frequently felt the urge to write more. [...]

[...] You both felt, again to some degree, that people could not understand your particular kinds of creativity. [...] You both felt an honest and deep compassion for other people, however: even winning in a sports event, you felt sorry for the loser. [...]

[...] (Long pause.) There were certain deep questions about life, certain pressing problems about man’s condition, with which you felt you had little experience, since your primary goals had been to examine life, to stand apart from it to study it, And therefore you both felt that you had few of the same concerns as those that led other people (quietly intent). [...]

(Jane didn’t particularly look like she wanted to hold a session, though, and said she felt some resistance to the idea. [...]

[...] You felt sometimes as if you wanted to spy upon life, observe it rather than live it directly. [...]

[...] I felt deep affection for Jean, a strange and surprising longing mixed with a strong sexual awareness of her attractiveness. I also knew she felt the same way about me. [...]

[...] I felt it was significant.

[...] I told Jane I also felt that Jean was somehow dissatisfied in life, perhaps confused, perhaps caught between her artistic leanings and her upbringing to lead the more conventional life — working at the hospital, and so forth. [...]

Jean Longwell then represented Frank’s feelings toward his daughter, and in a fashion you felt those as your own — a mixture of paternal love, sexuality, and sympathy. [...]

He felt that in the world’ s eyes this put you down, since your paintings were not selling. At the same time he could not accept your legitimate financial contribution through the work because he felt that might betray you as an artist. His job then was to encourage you to paint and sell your paintings, for he felt nothing else would satisfy you, and/or satisfy your brothers or your family.

[...] You felt conflicts at times. [...]

[...] For one reason, you identified your painting creative self with your father, and you felt that he had had to protect his creative self in the household from your mother. [...]

Ruburt felt he had to protect his writing abilities in the same manner, except that he is by nature more gregarious. [...]

[...] He felt strongly but could not explain. [...] He felt strongly his connection with the universe as a whole and with nature as he understood it. [...]

[...] Jane sensed her grandfather’s feeling of identification with the rest of nature, however, and since as a young child she had not yet developed a strong ego personality, she felt no sense of rejection as did, for example, the other members of the family. When he spoke of the wind, she felt like the wind, as any child will unselfconsciously identify with the elements.

[...] He tried to hold himself down because, he felt, the energy was so strong that allowed freedom in almost any direction, it would bring him into conflict with the mores and ways of other people.

[...] It was obvious to her in her youth that none of her friends wrote poetry, or talked about the subject matter of much of her own poetry.³ Jane intuitively felt her own nature, without trying to define it. [...]

[...] I felt so many emotions churning within me that I wondered just how I was supposed to express all of this love amid all of them. [...] Before the session I’d told Jane that I’d always felt that in our relationship my own contributions were doomed to fall short of what she wanted and expected from me —that I’d always felt I couldn’t give all she needed from a marriage partner. [...]

(This afternoon Jane told me that she felt “panicky.” [...]

(After supper Jane said she felt “loads of material from Seth” about our discussion this afternoon, and that it would take up not one but many sessions. [...]

[...] The “sinful-self syndrome” (long pause) was activated or heightened or highlighted in the last year or so in particular as you saw yourselves in a crisis situation (long pause), and to one extent or another Ruburt felt that he would be forced to ask for medical help if he did not further help himself. [...]

(Jane felt that part of her was in back of me, that it was some kind of projection, yet she also “saw” this spot from her seat in the rocker, with her eyes closed... At one time, very dimly, Jane felt something was behind her, also, directing energy toward her.

(Jane felt the concentration of energy was stronger when it was directed toward me from the rocker at the start of this episode. [...]

(Again, she felt quite disoriented when she finally opened her eyes and saw the position of her chair, compared to where she had thought it was. [...]

He felt that your visitors came to see the public image (as they certainly did, I’d say), and felt inferior by contrast. [...]

(Pause.) Ruburt has felt too responsible to develop his psychic abilities, to produce another “psychically inspired” work of his own. [...]

[...] He therefore often felt forced to do what before he had done because he wanted to. [...]

[...] To go on public television, join the workshops and so forth would not be Ruburt’s way, even while he felt that such a course was expected of him. [...]

[...] That represented a period in his life where he felt physically insecure. At his grandfather’s death he felt betrayed, then, because he had felt his grandfather invulnerable. [...]

[...] That negative quality emerged only when he felt the need for greater protection, when he threatened to become uncivilized—going against his society in unforeseen ways. When he became important at all in world terms, he could no longer be a pygmy, and therefore lost a part of that identification that he felt had protected him against his mother and the feared spontaneity or instincts. [...]

[...] He felt himself a pygmy, because of size and because as an Indian he was put down. [...]

[...] He felt they would not understand his mental properties. [...]

[...] You felt guilty at the thought of enjoying yourself so soon after your mother’s death. You felt some self-punishment, denying yourself the trip to make up for what you felt you might have done for her in the past.

[...] He wanted to help you, and felt powerless to a large extent.

Your father was inventive, his creativity in that line you felt dwarfed by family responsibility. [...]

(When the personality mentioned Jane’s shoulder area, Jane said she felt pain there, but that it was clear now. Jane still felt very relaxed. [...]

[...] She then seemed to project—she felt that she was hovering in the air over the Glen campground, which we know so well, and that she was looking down at the darkening green trees as they would appear at the present time—at about dusk.

[...] Jane sat quite still for some few moments; when I noticed her seeming to grope for words, soundlessly moving her lips, I felt Seth’s entity would give the session. [...]

[...] Jane said she felt that Seth stood between her and the new personality to act as a translator in both directions. [...]