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(On the way to 330 this noon I stopped to give the hospital the check for $18,000-plus that I’d received the day before yesterday from Blue Cross. A couple of weeks previously a check for some $3700 had arrived; the two go together to make one payment as billed by the hospital to the insurance company. I’m afraid that when I opened the letter and saw the check for the $18,000, I felt no reaction at all. I wondered then at my lack of feeling. I put my neutral state down to the long wait involved, my decision not to worry if at all possible, and probably other factors I haven’t even bothered to examine. Anger must be involved. Nor did I feel anything when the check for the $3700 came. I confess the lack of feeling here has caused me periodic concern.

(It appears that the payments will be for 100% of the bill, rather than 80% — but here again I’m waiting to see, suspended in a kind of cocoon of inaction or non-reaction …

(4:36.) This leads me of course to at least mention here the cruel methods used in the slaughtering of animals and fowls for human consumption. The creatures are treated as if they possessed no feeling or consciousness of their own — and such attitudes show a most unfortunate misreading of natural events. As a direct result, at least as many diseases develop through such procedures as would exist in a highly primitive society with unsanitary conditions. Period.