“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This is Day 13 of Jane’s new campaign.

(Jane called last night. The day was again very warm — over 50 — when I left for 330. The snow and ice are gone. I stopped at the bank to buy a check for the IRS and money orders to pay bills. This morning I’d written two letters to people who had sent us donations, I told Jane. I plan to open the account for those checks later this week.

(I also told Jane that in a batch of fan mail that had been temporarily lost, I found a note from my dentist’s secretary and nurse, Babs, changing the date of my appointment from Feb. 13 to the 23rd. I’d sat alone in the office yesterday, the date of my original appointment, with no one ever showing up. I wrote the dentist a note and left it on his desk.

(I do have a thing going with dentists. I told Jane that if she’d had her regular session yesterday in 330, so that I was busy typing it last night, I wouldn’t have found Babs’s note, because I wouldn’t have had the extra time after supper to go through fan mail, clean out the paper bag I carry to the hospital each day, and so on. So, why did she not have a session yesterday, the day of my dental appointment? It’s the first one Jane has missed in weeks, literally.

(Jane went to hydro this morning. Her temperature is in the normal range, and her menu is no longer marked for calorie count. She did not see Jeff this morning. She is still on the two antibiotics, Gentamicin and Bactrim. Her blotchy feet are even more improved — remarkably so, I told her. [She can’t see them.]

(Jane didn’t eat a whole lot of lunch. Afterward I gave her a Valentine’s Day card, and a box of candy shaped like a heart. I hadn’t eaten lunch today because a nurse had said to eat there at 330, since staff was having a party. No one showed up with food for me, though, so I ate what Jane didn’t want off the tray — half a roast-beef sandwich, with mustard. Very good.

(Since she had no session from yesterday to read, Jane tried to read the session for February 1 — the one that led to her Day 1, 2, 3 program. She couldn’t manage it, though, so I read it to her: “Health is simplicity itself.” An excellent session. Then I read her the session for February 5 — equally good. They helped her. Jane seldom asks to read past sessions — behavior that is still protective, I think, and has been for many years. This, even though Seth has lately again suggested she reread certain material. To me this situation has always been a clear demonstration that one part of herself is still in opposition to another part, and that the fearful self is still dominant though perhaps to a somewhat lesser degree these days, for we have made progress.

(Jane’s temperature was normal — 98.3, at 3:45. Frank Longwell visited. I tried to do some mail, but didn’t get far. Because of the warm weather, the window of 330 was open a foot, and the heat was off. Once again, when Jane had the session I became aware of traffic noise from Market Street.)

(“It’s me,” Jane said.

(4:47 p.m. Jane only vaguely remembered Seth’s answer to my question. I’d thought of asking it before, and should have. “I was going to ask another one, but you came out of it too quickly,” I said. I read the session to her. Then I explained that my next question was simply whether she could place herself in that state with Seth present, even though I wasn’t there and Seth didn’t speak. “If you can do it once a day, why not twice — or more?” I asked. “Make believe I’m there in the bathroom, just out of sight, or out in the hall.” I hoped this might help accelerate her healing even more. Jane agreed to try it.

(Jane said I could ask Seth my second question tomorrow.)