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DELETED SESSION

(We were fairly sure her reactions stemmed from the barrage of material Seth has given us since we began this series of “crash” sessions last week, but that knowledge didn’t help her much today. Particularly apparent, I thought, would be effects from last night’s session, which I regard as excellent. This morning in bed Jane had thrashed and whimpered almost constantly while both sleeping and waking, unable to get comfortable. The panicky feelings wouldn’t allow that, though—they expressed themselves in waves just as they had last Monday and Wednesday mornings. I took this to mean that communication continued between her Sinful Self and other levels of her personality.

(“Maybe you’d better have a session tonight,” I said. I didn’t really mean it, since we’d thought sessions were over for the week on Thursday.

(“I don’t want another session,” Jane said. “I just want to watch some dumb old thing on television tonight and forget it all.”

(“Incredible,” I said to myself, thinking about the daily struggle she now had to contend with just to do a few basic things like using the bathroom. Last night’s session was in my mind, of course. And I thought that years ago, [and with my own unwitting cooperation] Jane had given over control of her life in certain large ways to the Sinful Self through the symptoms—and yes, abjectly allowed it to exert such power and influence that now she finally found herself in the grip of a strong force, or set of beliefs. Why such a course of action, such a surrender, as I saw it? A little suffering in life—okay, I thought, considering the session last night—but this? She’d reached her limit in some areas, such as the bathroom.

(She was very glum and silent as she spent much time on the couch this afternoon and after supper. “Something’s got to be done,” she said. “I can’t take much more of this.” She herself suggested the session, then, and of course I agreed. I also told her I hadn’t forgotten about the list of 6 points I’d made for the deleted session of April 13, 1981. That seemed like ages ago now. The last of those points described our seeking medical help for her. To my mind at the moment, that course of action would be the “something to be done” if we failed to get enough help from these late sessions.

(Long pause.) It did not feel it was being given any satisfactory recognition, however. The main issues are the ones already given. You should discuss them together in the light of the sessions, and with understanding. They are involved with the importance and the nature and reliability of revelationary material and as it is related to a literal true-and-false interpretation.

End of session.