“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane spent one of her worst nights yet last evening: “It was pretty shitty.” She slept very poorly and was continuously restless. She took aspirin, sat up often, and even called me to rub her legs and backside when those areas bothered her much more than usual. Nothing helped much. She slept until 11 AM, then spent a very silent and depressed day moodwise. Her legs especially bothered her.

(Seth started right off tonight with a rather surprising statement and a hopeful one too. Jane began speaking for him with unexpected vigor:)

Now: One point I wanted to make for the record. The Sinful Self, however, no longer identifies with the Roman Catholic Church, as once it did, and in years past it also became dissatisfied with that framework. It represents what is left over of Ruburt’s questioning and doubts, those unresolved areas that were emotionally charged not only because of, say, Church doctrine, but intensified because of emotional episodes with his mother, or other such issues. In that regard the Sinful Self, then, is not pleased with its situation.

(Long pause.) It did not feel it was being given any satisfactory recognition, however. The main issues are the ones already given. You should discuss them together in the light of the sessions, and with understanding. They are involved with the importance and the nature and reliability of revelationary material and as it is related to a literal true-and-false interpretation.

The idea that our work might set up a new church, therefore, is a very touchy one. These are all matters to be satisfactorily discussed and explained and understood, however, once it is understood that such questions are legitimate ones, and not foolish worries to be just thrust aside.

(8:30.) They actually represent very complex matters, and complex ones to explain, for in themselves they contain the seeds of material necessary for any understanding of the nature of reality and beliefs. Religion itself, of course, would hardly stand the test.

Many issues once connected to that Sinful-Self core of belief have long ago either been satisfied, reconciled, or otherwise changed. (Long pause.) The feelings of panic represent any child’s fear of being abandoned by its parents or community if it is too rebellious. (Long pause.) Those feelings of panic are the ones that he has repressed, of course. They often represent humiliations, most often at his mother’s hands—humiliations that convinced him that he was indeed unlovable and bound for trouble.