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(10:54.) Now Ruburt, because of his beliefs, “artificially” disciplined his muscles so that he would be forced to concentrate upon what it seemed you and he both thought was most important in life—your work.

He felt that for artistic, financial, and personal reasons this was necessary. It was necessary because he believed that the spontaneous self, left alone, would not so concentrate—or that his spontaneous self would not, but would also be tempted by whatever other private pursuits. That belief built up a body of habits so that even when he made headway in changing the basic belief at least, he was left with beliefs about the body that were secondary but habitual; beliefs shared by each of you about his body, so that the evidence was always present.

His eyes did not freely roam, but followed the limited head motions. The neck and throat muscles were held in a particular fashion. Everything fit together. He allowed himself no leeway, or very little, and in that framework the body was limited but predictable.

It also affects the release of the knees, which is occurring. At this time, the right side is particularly active from the head down, and one eye is therefore sometimes more active than the other, causing the image difficulties. His eyes rarely feel strained, however, or tired. They are enjoying the mobility. His overall balance, or feeling of balance, does constantly change, however, as the muscular pressure pressures, or tensions, do. There is no doubt that this can be disconcerting, as can the eyes’ motions under the conditions noted.

Ruburt’s balance has completely changed in a week, so that his weight can now fall on his heels. He gets up easier, as well as sitting down easier—something he neglected to mention; nor did you observe this.

(“Good night.” 11:30 PM. I thought Seth’s data on the tooth mechanisms very acute indeed. Jane and I haven’t done anything about the hypnosis suggestions, obviously; we need our recorder repaired. I sometimes think it impossible to do all we want to do, or think we should, in the course of an ordinary day. Even if we could manage this, I fear we’d end up so regimented that half of the tasks would be self-defeating. I do think that on my part at least this feeling underlies some of my own shortcomings. Seth was quite chiding in a gently amused way tonight when mentioning the hypnosis affair, his voice quiet, and, I thought, rather tired. This weekend—it’s Sunday afternoon as I type this—we’ve been literally so occupied that we didn’t take the time to go food shopping for the week’s supply. This means extra time later in the week to make up. Nor did Jane get her mail answered yesterday, as she had planned to do, nor did she find the time to putter about in the house, either in her writing room, or the studio annex.)