“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Numerous questions were raised by the event, of course, but Seth doesn’t go into them this evening. Jane and I have started our own list for Wednesday night’s session, instead. It can hardly be a coincidence that this “opportunity” materialized shortly after we began our new program suggested by Seth, and what we’ve learned about our attitudes toward publicity, scorn and criticism, and go forth. Perhaps our handling of the affair will show just where we’re at, as they say. No commitments have been made, and I’m anxious that Jane consider whether she even wants the interview, as well as the questions that would then arise, should she answer yes.

(Jim Poett said that we would see the article before it’s printed, at our insistence; I’d find it strange indeed to cooperate with a venture that would end up taking us apart in ways we didn’t approve of. But Jane says she trusts him, and I’m willing to go along with her feelings on the matter.)

He became quite good at expressing this inner life regardless of other circumstances, and the situation at home, and he understood that it was at odds with what was expected. It was the most vital area of his life, so quite on his own he decided that he would forgo motherhood and a conventional family life.

If he were free of fear, it seemed to him, he would do so. Ruburt, however, deals well with individuals, as in class; while preserving his privacy he still extended it. He enjoyed radio, even on your tours, because he spoke from a concealed viewpoint, where his person was concealed. The secret elements of his personality rise up against the public connotations of standing before the crowd. This is not necessarily a fear, say, of performing inadequately, nor a fear of exposure in ordinary terms. It is a distaste for being surrounded by the public emotions.

While trusting himself enough to use the abilities—and in a largely uncongenial social atmosphere—he still found it necessary to be highly critical, and not to rely upon the abilities too much, lest he was unknowingly as deluded as many people would certainly say he was. That meant, however, that to some degree he cut himself off from solutions that the abilities themselves could provide.