“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

A good deal of the time, he hid his own decisions from himself. His nature is open—basically trustful, and direct in its dealings with the world and others. He began to find, of course, that the world could react quite differently to openness and trust. He has great powers of concentration, as indeed all mystics do, and everything in his environment becomes charged and important.

The strong private nature leads to personal discoveries, and his basically direct way of dealing with the world means that he wants to share those discoveries. He often feels that he needs protection against that same world, for while he shares so much with his fellows. He still feels basically apart from them in important ways.

You shared that kind of feeling to a considerable extent. As contacts with the world are lessened, however, there is little feedback, so that the “dangers” of the world can easily become exaggerated—and little experience is gained in dealing with the far more mundane aspects of such contact.

(9:35.) Give us a moment.... If you recall, Ruburt could chatter quite well, and carry on in a more or less normal manner while brooding deeply about something, and saying nothing. He was bound to publish his work—any kind—but equally determined to protect his private nature. The secretness meant that he could hide his intent from himself for some time. Most people, as I mentioned, experience their contacts with the world through many prepared structures—that of church, community, clubs, professional organizations, family affiliations, academic affiliations—and these frameworks serve automatically to cushion such contact, and in a way, while permitting contact with the world, also blunting it to some extent. In that respect, most individuals do not stand alone, and, in that respect Ruburt feels that except for you he does, and must meet the world “head-on” when there is such conflict.

The mystic is primarily concerned with a one-point relationship to the universe. Ruburt used to feel as a child threatened by crowds. He did not like to sit close to others. The two of you maintain a psychic distance from others, even your closest friends. In a way the symptoms are a statement of the distance Ruburt wanted to maintain from public life, because he felt equally that he should go out into the world in a public manner, and “tackle it.”

Ruburt did begin to feel more and more apart from the ordinary world, and both of you concentrated upon that feeling of apartness.

Give us a moment.... Once again, of course, there were no guides in the exterior world, and the two of you determined to explore the nature of reality to the best of your abilities. You also decided that you must use great caution while you were doing so, in your dealings with the world.

Give us a moment.... Ruburt acted as naturally as possible today, reminding himself to be spontaneous. Your natural way of dealing with the world is also one of trust (to me), but you also feel that the world might betray such trust. True trust, however, is your greatest protection, and you cannot be betrayed, for you will not attract deceivers. It is far better to trust, for you open up Framework 2 so that benefits become available that might otherwise not be—and even if it seems that a trust is betrayed in an individual case, the overall picture will prove to be far different.