“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Numerous questions were raised by the event, of course, but Seth doesn’t go into them this evening. Jane and I have started our own list for Wednesday night’s session, instead. It can hardly be a coincidence that this “opportunity” materialized shortly after we began our new program suggested by Seth, and what we’ve learned about our attitudes toward publicity, scorn and criticism, and go forth. Perhaps our handling of the affair will show just where we’re at, as they say. No commitments have been made, and I’m anxious that Jane consider whether she even wants the interview, as well as the questions that would then arise, should she answer yes.

He did not want to be put in the position in which he felt he had to put his self-respect on the line. He did not like the public aspects that he felt confronted him. There was no ready fellowship in the psychic field, in which he felt he could take part. At the same time he felt that he should indeed go abroad—out into the public arena, and that he was cowardly for not doing so.

Both of you see the foibles of others rather clearly. Ruburt began to concentrate upon them, however, and also feared that the classes might turn into more public endeavors as they became better known—one of the reasons for dropping them.

The mystic is primarily concerned with a one-point relationship to the universe. Ruburt used to feel as a child threatened by crowds. He did not like to sit close to others. The two of you maintain a psychic distance from others, even your closest friends. In a way the symptoms are a statement of the distance Ruburt wanted to maintain from public life, because he felt equally that he should go out into the world in a public manner, and “tackle it.”

If he were free of fear, it seemed to him, he would do so. Ruburt, however, deals well with individuals, as in class; while preserving his privacy he still extended it. He enjoyed radio, even on your tours, because he spoke from a concealed viewpoint, where his person was concealed. The secret elements of his personality rise up against the public connotations of standing before the crowd. This is not necessarily a fear, say, of performing inadequately, nor a fear of exposure in ordinary terms. It is a distaste for being surrounded by the public emotions.