“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane lost an eye tooth early this morning, before we got up. It became abundantly clear that she was going to lose the tooth a couple of days ago, as it began to visibly descend from its socket; I could see it wobble in its socket as we ate breakfast Friday morning, and she expected to lose it at any minute. I found this very discouraging, and once again began to question the whole bit about symptoms, recovery, Seth, etc.

(Yesterday we also had two unexpected visitors, as well as a brief call from a young man who had called on us unannounced with a friend, last week. The two women were from Arizona and Massachusetts; the former had flown here to see Jane unannounced. I turned her away at the door with a promise that Jane would call her at the Holiday Inn. Shortly after she left, the second caller, a “parapsychologist” from a college in Massachusetts, was camping in Pine Valley with her family. I arranged that both women would meet here at 4:00 PM to talk with Jane for an hour before supper time; Sue Watkins was also due that afternoon with some typed material for Psyche—which is why I made the arrangement to begin with.

(Jane and I almost had an argument over the setup, though, for I had mistakenly assumed that she’d be glad to see everyone at once and get it over with, so we’d be free the rest of the day. Instead, Jane was counting on being free for the day and didn’t want to see anybody except Sue. I decided that henceforth I would turn visitors away, since I didn’t see how I could know in advance whether she felt like seeing anyone or not. I mention these details to show something of our situation re Seth’s last deleted session on “intruders” when we want privacy. We haven’t resolved such dilemmas then, obviously.

(Tonight I didn’t know whether it was worthwhile having a session or not. Yet Jane reported more walking changes today; we thought they were good changes, so eventually we sat for the session. I might add that although Seth said losing the teeth was a minor thing, comparatively, it doesn’t seem so to us. Also: when Sue arrived, she reported that on her visit to the dentist this afternoon a large cavity was discovered that she didn’t know existed. She remarked upon her own beliefs about teeth—something she’d had no trouble with for many years.)

A session was a good decision.

It would be silly for a violet to wonder why it was not a grape. You have certain natures, then, that are your own. It is somewhat beside the point to wonder why your natures are as they are. You have always been loners, in reincarnational terms and otherwise.

Today could have been a day of relaxation and some mild enough triumph. It was not, of course. It was not because Ruburt’s confidence failed, and so did yours. Then Ruburt did not communicate because he did not want to worry you, since he knew your confidence was no better than his.

To her, if you saw her at all, it meant that you would accept her as a student, or rather as a clinger. Ruburt was not hiding (as I suggested) in that particular instance. The other woman was an entirely different matter, yet you saw her also because you thought you must, or should. She benefited by the interview. If you follow your inclinations you cannot go wrong, for they are acutely tuned to each instance and each person, and take into consideration your own circumstances at the time.

To some extent the York beach images held what might have been expected of you. In the terms of which we’re speaking, now, having attained a certain but quite limited artistic career that you felt was more of a prison that no technique could help you escape.

(11:33.) You are trying out highly creative, innovative, imaginative, and truthful concepts—not just theoretically and artistically, but applying them to your lives. You have again fallen into the habit, negatively, of considering your achievements in other areas as insignificant—(louder:) in light of Ruburt’s condition as if they caused his condition. They did not. His condition was caused by a set of beliefs, and so was everything else in your lives.

(A note: The woman from Arizona sent Jane a telegram late Saturday afternoon, asking that Jane see her again, saying that she would wait several days at the Holiday Inn. etc. Jane called her at the Holiday Inn. only to be told.< that the woman had left. She must have done so soon after sending the wire. A change of heart? We had been out earlier Saturday, but evidently the woman had not been here. In any event, Jane was prepared to tell her that she would not see her again.)