“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Yesterday we also had two unexpected visitors, as well as a brief call from a young man who had called on us unannounced with a friend, last week. The two women were from Arizona and Massachusetts; the former had flown here to see Jane unannounced. I turned her away at the door with a promise that Jane would call her at the Holiday Inn. Shortly after she left, the second caller, a “parapsychologist” from a college in Massachusetts, was camping in Pine Valley with her family. I arranged that both women would meet here at 4:00 PM to talk with Jane for an hour before supper time; Sue Watkins was also due that afternoon with some typed material for Psyche—which is why I made the arrangement to begin with.

What happened is this: the large neck ligaments considerably loosened further, releasing important areas of the jaw—unfortunately enough dislodging a tooth. While unpleasant, that is not a tragedy. That release allowed further relaxation so that vitally important areas in the arm and in the backs of the legs were further released. These permitted some new rotation of both knees, and also loosened some ligaments to the feet.

(10:20.) Those areas tried to work together today. The trembling (in the legs) is indeed a sign of new life, new sensation, as large areas of the body try the new positions. Had you both trusted the body, had you believed that it did indeed improve to improve, then Ruburt would have been more aware of the new balancing sensations and positions, and would not have added anxiety on top.

It is highly important that you do keep up your communications with each other, and that you begin each day in one way or another by stating your faith in the body’s processes. This would take but a few moments. It is also important, now, that you concentrate upon your own creative works, both of you—Ruburt particularly, so that he takes his mind off of his body, and focuses elsewhere. Since you are doing this alone, more or less, it is natural to be upset at times, but when your confidence is greater than your doubts, Ruburt always improves.

His body is responding extremely well, despite the mental anxiety that both of you place upon the process. Ruburt’s condition is in no way reprehensible (repeated twice)—there is no reason why you should consider it in such a fashion. There are more people than you know, relying upon the best medical knowledge of the society, who are in far worse shape, whether or not the condition is observable—millions, incidentally, with false teeth.

Ruburt’s were the same. Each of you felt that you should see the woman regardless of your feelings. The woman would have accepted a no. She halfway expected it, as you both unconsciously realized. A yes to her would mean far more than yes to a brief interview.

When you do not trust your inclinations then you must indeed make rules to follow instead. It takes but a moment to check with each other, though so far you usually answer the door, but state your feelings to Ruburt clearly, then ask for his, and make your decision jointly. One of you may want to talk to the person involved, or both of you, or neither. There is no strain that should be involved. The affair is taken care of in a few moments.

(Loudly again:) Now: had you not taken this route, you both would have been in far greater difficulties. Of course, you would not be the same people—but your understanding and knowledge has drastically changed the future that could have been expected, say, from your backgrounds in this life, now.

Luckily, those beliefs allowed the possibility of achievement even if they did also permit experience most dismaying. But watch the center of your focus. We are setting up an alternate framework. Your focus must be upon your abilities, your achievements; the realities—all of them—of the moment. You both have great powers of concentration and energy. I want those directed toward the issues just mentioned. Reinstate the library, together. Only your poor habits and lack of confidence stand in the way. When you worry all day then the library goes out the window, and so does your feeling of creative adventure, in your own creative hours, both of you.