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He thought he should write, and he wanted to. The impulse was strong. His bodily impulse to move and to go to the bathroom was even stronger. He decided to do that, but felt guilty. He then swept the kitchen, because the body wanted the motion, and so did he.

Lunch, and he took his shower—something else he had put off doing. Before that, however, he purposefully decided to exercise—hence the stairway. Two issues were involved. He punished himself for not writing by making the performance very difficult. On the other hand, certain ligaments had been released in the right leg. They were beginning to come into greater activity, but the leg was not ready to bear the full weight he had to put upon it for the top stair.

To some extent he knew this, but felt defiant enough to try it anyway. He had not written. He felt the impulse to paint, and did so, but by late afternoon he was in a very poor mood. He had the sense to write his notes, however, so the issue was not buried. It was a creative conflict.

In such cases, however, and with your understanding, he should feel free to call on you, regardless of what you are doing. This will be easier on you also in the long run. Such issues only arise at certain stages. His mood was so bad because he felt that he could not win no matter what he did. If he had written instead, he thought, then he would have been denying the body impulses. The “error” was simply a result of a series of such denied impulses, that he then let loose at once. It is far better, however, to do that and learn than to deny the impulses altogether.

My recommendations are tailored to his condition now. I also want him to read the old sessions on work and spontaneity.