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In such cases, however, and with your understanding, he should feel free to call on you, regardless of what you are doing. [...] His mood was so bad because he felt that he could not win no matter what he did. If he had written instead, he thought, then he would have been denying the body impulses. The “error” was simply a result of a series of such denied impulses, that he then let loose at once. [...]

He thought he should write, and he wanted to. [...] He decided to do that, but felt guilty. He then swept the kitchen, because the body wanted the motion, and so did he.

(Pause at 11:58.) He did well at the dentist’s. Your attitude was of help. [...] You will have to face together certain important issues when he feels well enough so that he actively wants to go in stores. [...] That is, he is not to be writing then or anything else. [...] He need not try to do more. In fact, he should not, for I want him to have a simple feeling of achievement. [...]

Lunch, and he took his shower—something else he had put off doing. Before that, however, he purposefully decided to exercise—hence the stairway. [...] He punished himself for not writing by making the performance very difficult. [...] They were beginning to come into greater activity, but the leg was not ready to bear the full weight he had to put upon it for the top stair.

To some extent he knew this, but felt defiant enough to try it anyway. He had not written. He felt the impulse to paint, and did so, but by late afternoon he was in a very poor mood. He had the sense to write his notes, however, so the issue was not buried. [...]

[...] As he becomes aware of them again, it is natural that in the beginning there is some confusion. He will have choices to make that before he did not have—choices he avoided consciously. [...]

It should not upset him unduly then if it seems to him that he makes “the wrong decision” at any given time, for the process of becoming aware of the impulses is now the important issue, and then to decide between them. He was feeling particularly “brave” this morning. [...] At the same time an inhibited impulse arose—to go to the bathroom—that he had ignored. He allowed them both to arise together. [...]

[...] These sensed changes of course are responsible for the fact that he felt like trying the stairs to begin with.

He is to get up at least once for the bathroom in that period.

[...] Ruburt may therefore feel like performing acts, and he should try them before their competent execution can be carried through.