“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

His mother banked upon her femininity, or so it seemed, stressing what Ruburt thought of as feminine wiles. That approach had not worked with Ruburt’s mother, who recognized Ruburt’s writing ability at least, and tried to encourage it. The mother however also overstressed the importance of a formal education as a quite bloodthirsty method of surviving in a hostile world. This meant that a certain conformity to official culture was maintained.

The abilities quickly grew out of any conventional surroundings. They were to be protected at all costs. Ruburt expected her husband, the man, to show spontaneous love and affection, and to supply emotional richness, which she was willing to nurture—but she expected the artist—who happened to be her husband—to protect himself from any emotional response that might interfere with his work.

Now all of this was built upon certain levels of consciousness and beliefs—a unifying structure. As mentioned, in the past at least your actions were ambiguous enough to fit in. The environment at 458 was safe. Ruburt was there working—just as the doctors and insurance men and dentists were. The move here (to 1730) was a good one, because it exploded that framework. Your suggestions of late are taking effect. There are significant muscular changes. The summer, with its implications of vacation, was added, however, as he knew it would be; so the structure of working was further evaded, it seemed particularly by warm weather, which inclination did not happen to fit his ideas of scheduled work.

He further unstructured, shaking up his consciousness by not sleeping. Clearly, he saw that he worked or slept, and allowed himself little freedom between. Lest he be tempted by his new house, he felt poorly, even for him, yet he saw through what he was doing, and he has begun an awakening of consciousness that is now in the process. Last night’s dreams show this. He awakened from the nightmare of immobility, and found himself on “the road to freedom” with you. I want a Wednesday night session, if you do not mind—