“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Education was a practical tool. Ruburt sought out men who would not insist upon children. This also meant that they had certain slants of mind. These slants fit in with his artistic purposes as he understood them. Because he considered himself a writer, and because he considered a writer something different from a woman, it was difficult for him to realize that he was both.

None of this would particularly show in terms of symptoms until Ruburt began to sell. Then the tool was perfected. The abilities were put to the purpose of protecting him from the hostile world, serving as economic sustenance. It became his duty to repress spontaneous feelings that might lead him astray. Before, those found expression in his dealings with the outside world—but those dealings, he felt, were no longer necessary.

He further unstructured, shaking up his consciousness by not sleeping. Clearly, he saw that he worked or slept, and allowed himself little freedom between. Lest he be tempted by his new house, he felt poorly, even for him, yet he saw through what he was doing, and he has begun an awakening of consciousness that is now in the process. Last night’s dreams show this. He awakened from the nightmare of immobility, and found himself on “the road to freedom” with you. I want a Wednesday night session, if you do not mind—