“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Some of this has been said before, but is necessary here nevertheless. In capsule form, then, Ruburt found himself born poor, female, and highly gifted. He determined to use those abilities.

His mother banked upon her femininity, or so it seemed, stressing what Ruburt thought of as feminine wiles. That approach had not worked with Ruburt’s mother, who recognized Ruburt’s writing ability at least, and tried to encourage it. The mother however also overstressed the importance of a formal education as a quite bloodthirsty method of surviving in a hostile world. This meant that a certain conformity to official culture was maintained.

The abilities quickly grew out of any conventional surroundings. They were to be protected at all costs. Ruburt expected her husband, the man, to show spontaneous love and affection, and to supply emotional richness, which she was willing to nurture—but she expected the artist—who happened to be her husband—to protect himself from any emotional response that might interfere with his work.

None of this would particularly show in terms of symptoms until Ruburt began to sell. Then the tool was perfected. The abilities were put to the purpose of protecting him from the hostile world, serving as economic sustenance. It became his duty to repress spontaneous feelings that might lead him astray. Before, those found expression in his dealings with the outside world—but those dealings, he felt, were no longer necessary.