“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You did not dwell consciously on the kind of woman you wanted. Some men never achieve any kind of creative or stable relationship with a woman, and so they are acutely aware of that lack in their lives. One purpose was met, then, when you married Ruburt. Your desire to paint, per se, did not emerge full blown when you were a young man, and one probable self is happily engaged in commercial artwork. He wonders what would have happened had he done something else. You did not meet Ruburt either until you were in your thirties, so the challenges set were not those that would be solved by a conventionally young man.

Those refinements that you want of technique are within you now. Only your worrying slows their actualization. Together you can solve both challenges. You can get on top of your lives in these important respects. But you must be willing to do so, and use the methods given. Both of you can help each other. And the results will seem as miraculous, as this house might have, had you suddenly been transported to it ten years ago.