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Any improvements Ruburt shows are considered insignificant, unimportant—or worse, deceptive. They are not trusted. They become lost. It is not that they are considered unimportant so much as they are considered to be not trustworthy. You are so afraid to trust them, either of you. Not only are they not taken advantage of then, but when they do not continue this is taken as proof that they are deceptive.

(11:25.) Give us a moment.... The improvements, then, rouse anxiety. Ruburt is afraid of disappointing himself and you as well if they do not continue. One or the other of you reinforce the idea of threat, the extraordinary energy is available. (This from Jane’s reading of William James lately.) You have been afraid of really structuring the improvements, of really making an important effort, for fear that effort will fail.

I will have more to say in that regard. On several occasions however in the past, you did learn to trust improvements, and Ruburt made important strides. He is almost afraid of mentioning it when something works better, for example. I want this changed: I will have much more to say at our next session.

Your ideas, individually and jointly, are innovative and daring. When Ruburt shows an improvement of any kind, you both become cringing. You take it for granted that the improvement will not last, and is deceptive. You remember the past history of improvements that vanished. You are not daring, you are not innovative, you are not creative—either of you (emphatically)—in that area.

You look for the improvement to disappear, each of you. You become anxious at its onset. Sometimes Ruburt feels guilty at any improvement he feels on any given day because it seems too obvious that this is only a setup for a future disappointment. Better not mention it, and only disappoint himself.

Any improvements should be considered in the light of his own position. If he walks down his steps better, that should be noted and encouraged. Often, for example, he will think “Big deal—so I can lift one foot now a little better than I did yesterday.” In the light of normal walking that is hardly significant, and he will become discouraged rather than encouraged, as he should be.

(One important notes I typed this session the next day, Sunday, of course. This morning Jane began to exclaim over the improvement in her vision—her left eye would “click in” as she put it, and her sight would be sharp. The effects were very pronounced, and continued as we went shopping, etc. Jane is delighted. They still continue “clicking in” as I finish this session, late Sunday afternoon. “The first improvements at all,” Jane exclaimed. I think she should set up a definite program of reflexology now, with the aim of helping the knees as well as the eyes.)