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For a while your beliefs, ideas, and artistic ability merged at one level. You moved out of that level. Millions of people consider that the ordinary, accepted mode of existence. The story lines that went with those cartoons amused the people. You did your best to illustrate those stories. You could have stayed in the field. But even from the beginning you knew it was a transitory part of your development.

(11:25.) Give us a moment.... The improvements, then, rouse anxiety. Ruburt is afraid of disappointing himself and you as well if they do not continue. One or the other of you reinforce the idea of threat, the extraordinary energy is available. (This from Jane’s reading of William James lately.) You have been afraid of really structuring the improvements, of really making an important effort, for fear that effort will fail.

Your ideas, individually and jointly, are innovative and daring. When Ruburt shows an improvement of any kind, you both become cringing. You take it for granted that the improvement will not last, and is deceptive. You remember the past history of improvements that vanished. You are not daring, you are not innovative, you are not creative—either of you (emphatically)—in that area.