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They are afraid of vulnerability. They are between the comic book world and your own. They yearn for an authority they can trust. Ruburt’s books show that it is not all that easy, in their terms. They want to believe that he depends upon me to make all his decisions, and they do not want to hear about his independent thinking. They are between dependence and independence, at the level of which I am speaking.

I will have more to say in that regard. On several occasions however in the past, you did learn to trust improvements, and Ruburt made important strides. He is almost afraid of mentioning it when something works better, for example. I want this changed: I will have much more to say at our next session.

You look for the improvement to disappear, each of you. You become anxious at its onset. Sometimes Ruburt feels guilty at any improvement he feels on any given day because it seems too obvious that this is only a setup for a future disappointment. Better not mention it, and only disappoint himself.

Any improvements should be considered in the light of his own position. If he walks down his steps better, that should be noted and encouraged. Often, for example, he will think “Big deal—so I can lift one foot now a little better than I did yesterday.” In the light of normal walking that is hardly significant, and he will become discouraged rather than encouraged, as he should be.

His head has been congested for a long time—the neck, jaw, sinus, eyes all being affected, and that condition began before any symptoms were noticeable. The sinus inhaler was a crutch. When he became nervous he didn’t breathe properly. His head became congested and he used the inhaler.

Without my books, Ruburt’s books would not be the same. He would not have written them. It is impossible to say what he would have written. His books would not have shown the ability that they do now, however. “Unknown” will do well. Most likely it will be put out as one volume sometime in the future. It will be considered a textbook, however, and somewhat of a collector’s item.