“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The work with the book is to supercede any other suggestions I have given in the past for you. It has prime priority. Reading it and following the exercises will initiate your own inner and outer motion.

Your decision not to go to Florida had little to do with the energy crisis. You were both loath to leave your work behind and to allow yourselves the “lax” freedom. You wanted to get on with your own work, and to wait for the proofs of my book. You felt guilty at the thought of enjoying yourself so soon after your mother’s death. You felt some self-punishment, denying yourself the trip to make up for what you felt you might have done for her in the past.

Both of you have kept yourselves uneasy in your environment lest you become too comfortable. You concentrate upon the annoyances of your neighbors lest you become too close to them and emotionally involved and touched. You have lived here some years yet purposely avoided thinking of it, this apartment, as anything but transitory lest you put down roots and become involved in ways that might distract you from your work and purposes. Give us a moment.... You do not buy much furniture so that the idea of being transitory is more convincing. At the same time you stay where you are so you can work, while denying yourselves the sense of ease that you could otherwise enjoy.

At the same time you think, for several reasons, that at your age you should have a house, privacy to work, a way even of proving to your brothers that you have as much as they. Ruburt instead sees a trailer by the ocean, with each of you writing and painting—his vision, because that establishment requires no housekeeping and a small cash outlay.

Some of the symptoms then were indeed to insure your joint work integrity. You identified as a child whose presence betrayed its father, your father being forced to support you, particularly in the Depression. Ruburt as you know had his own reasons. Ruburt’s relative immobility kept him childless. You were turned off physically often, or he was not able to perform when you were not turned off.

Now: the other side of the picture. Ruburt sought you out for much the same reasons, with reincarnational background to be given. But Ruburt was the female: you would not bear any child, so the effort had to be strong on his part. Thoughts of buying a house throw both of you into a quandary because they directly come in conflict with your private ideas about your work and purposes, and your places in the world.

Give us a moment.... Your ideas of rustic simplicity do not match your feelings about dedication to work. Ruburt’s ideas of owning a house do not match his ideas of dedication to work. That is why his interpretation is a trailer. Both ideas are idealized, sentimentalized and distorted in your minds, and either could be incorporated in your ideas of work if you were aware of the conflicts.