“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now: Much of the information, and the most pertinent part, is buried in your files—I tried to give the data in various ways, although it was quite definitely given also in terms of the physical relationship several times; and only at one particular period did you try to take advantage of it.

He felt emotionally deprived regardless. In your own background you learned to voice silent disapproval. It became a defense mechanism. He kept the symptoms for several reasons—and again, all given—to preserve what relationship you had, for one thing.

You were the one who could really hurt him if he let go, by your rejection of his emotional dimensions, he felt. He felt you only accepted certain portions of him. Others would not be accepted, and you would run from them.

He felt you did not want him to get well, because you would then have these problems to consider, and they bothered you. On one hand then, he did not want you to have to contend with them, particularly if he could take the tension. There was however simultaneously great resentment: “How sick do I have to get before you will come back to me, and how can I be sure of it?”

He tried to show you his love, but finally he became ashamed of needing you, and felt even that you thought less of him because of it. It bothered and annoyed you, since it was a demand, and he did not believe in demands, and one that brought problems up within you.

The reincarnational material given in the bedroom over there one night was also a statement of that nature—the night in which Ruburt related to you as the priestess-prostitute you visited.

One note: I will not keep you late. You may have a break now if you want.

(Already I have made emotional improvements, and Jane has made physical ones.)